Humbled to Ask...4 My Life

I'm raising money because I'm losing my life, I'm an RN, I've fought, struggled, survived and come as far as I can.  But now, after a year, we are left with only one option.  I have to start, very soon, an incredibly expensive oral treatment.  Last year I went into a sudden multi-organ failure.... chomas X2, heart attacks X1, you name the test I underwent it, all AWAKE because I didn't want to die asleep...the cause of my multi-organ failure; prescription drug toxicity and homeopathic treatments interacting negatively causing chirrosis of the liver and my entire system to shut down.  

As of now the next step is either a potential liver transplant...we don't know, my doctors are reluctant to even consider it, doubting I'd survive the surgery,  and I'm very opposed to it, or this alternative therapy....these drugs which are an exhorbant amount of money and not covered by OHIP as they are not FDA approved.  But that is the route I wish to take.  I don't want to take a liver away from someone with a family, children, a spouse, etc.  I have my dad, and the angels I work with.  Still I just couldn't do that. 

Gosh, I've already done this part and yet still my face is covered with tears. As most of you know I've never been one to ask for help. I've chosen a path of gracious servitude as my driving force in life, and it's not often those of us who've done so are in a position of such vulnerability to admit complete defeat and acknowledge that I can no longer do this on my own. But I'm tired. I'm afraid. Angry at times. But most of all I remain true to who I am as a person, and that means I am above all else determined.

I need to pay for my treatments, my rehabilitation, my living expenses as I have zero dollars to my name, and keep the faith whilst I continue down this road.  Just for my treatments and rehab alone I'm looking at $2-4000/month.  I won't stop fighting.