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<div>Early Friday (6/20/25) morning around 6:15am Carlos was heading to work and he probably made it about 50-60 feet from our apartment when he was pulled over by three ICE cruisers (no local police were involved in the stop) so that tells you this was not a routine traffic stop but rather a premeditated stop. One of the agents approached Carlos' car and asked him to confirm his identity. Carlos' was not read rights or even offered a translator. He was just snatched off the street and taken to their Malta processing center. I quickly followed his location tracker on his phone and was only minutes behind him but when I arrived they would not allow me to see him, talk to him or even hug him, as they were treating him as if he were a criminal. By 5pm on Friday evening they had shipped my baby off to the detention center without so much as a call from any type of official to let me know anything and even still as I type this I have no idea what is going on with him or if he is even ok. I am heartbroken. I am traumatized. His entire family and I are in agony not knowing where Carlos is or what is happening. Onve Carlos is processed in the Detention Center he will be issued an "A number" and then I will be able to set him up an account to where he will have access to be able to use the phone. The phone calls are very expensive as they contract with private communication companies like Telmate where calls within NYS cost 7 cents per minute and out of state and international calls are 15 cents per minute. They charge additional fees just to add money to the account such as $5 for every $25 added. The rates are subject to change whenever the company decides but it adds up very quickly... and I know this all to well because unfortunately I have already been through this experience with my youngest daughters father who ultimately ended up getting deported back to the Dominican Republic in October of 2020. My children and I have already suffered enough. I am not creating this page looking for a handout. Quite a few of you have been reaching out to me privately to let me know that y'all wanted to be able to help monetarily. I have a very hard time asking for help so this has not come easy but I have people who are depending on me and being as I am a full time student at HVCC right now I have been full dependent upon Carlos' income. I do not have any clue as to when Carlos will be released. His lawyer told me to prepare for at least six weeks as the process is very lengthy to file for a termination of the case and then if that's denied, she will have to file for a bond. He told me that he does have a court date for July 11th but that is all I know at this point. I'm not asking for anything my friends except continued prayers but if the few of you that really feel compelled to want to help out monetarily still feel like that's your way of contributing, then here you go, but truly from the bottom of my heart, please do not feel pressure to give ANYTHING. I love my community. We are mighty together... you all keep showing up for me and I've never felt more supported in my life! I love you all and may the favor of the Lord rest upon each and every single one of you! 


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Help Carlos Tavares Reunite with His Family

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Stand by JERSEY KEBAB & the Emanet Family

<div>On Saturday, February 22nd, citizens gathered at a town hall in Kootenai County, Idaho, to speak with elected members of the Idaho Legislature about important issues affecting their community. What should have been a peaceful and productive event, where people exercised their right to voice their concerns, quickly turned into a violation of Dr. Teresa Borrenpohl’s constitutional rights.
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<div>This detainment wasn’t just an unfortunate moment—it was an illegal violation of Dr. Borrenpohl’s rights. She was denied her freedom of assembly, her freedom of speech, and most importantly, her right to be free from unlawful detention. This is not just an isolated event; it is a chilling reminder that, even in the United States, our civil liberties can be stripped away without warning.
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<div>No American should fear being carted away by an unnamed paramilitary force without cause. The protection of our freedoms—freedom of speech, freedom of assembly, and the right to be free from unlawful detention—should never be taken for granted. Dr. Borrenpohl is not just fighting for herself; she is fighting for every one of us.
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<div>Thank you for standing with Dr. Borrenpohl, for the protection of our civil liberties, and for the preservation of justice in America. Every contribution, no matter the size, will make a meaningful difference in this fight.
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Justice for Dr. Teresa Borrenpohl: Fight for the First

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<div>Despite her many challenges, including struggles with mental health and addiction, Maya was a fighter. She worked so hard to overcome her demons and was clean for 11 months. Tragically, during this time, Maya experienced an unbearable loss the sudden passing of her stepfather, whom she loved deeply. They were going through a difficult time and hadn’t spoken before his passing. The guilt and grief overwhelmed her, leading to a relapse that would change her life forever.

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<div>As a family, we made the heart-wrenching decision to honor her wishes. Maya passed away peacefully, free from pain and surrounded by love.

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<div>This has been a devastating and unexpected loss for all of us. We truly believed she would overcome this, but her body had endured too much. Now, we are asking for your help to give Maya the farewell she deserves. We need assistance with the cost of her cremation, an urn for her ashes, and a celebration of her life.

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<div>Maya was deeply loved and cared for by so many people. Any donation, no matter how small, would mean the world to us and help us honor her memory in the way she deserves.

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A Loving Goodbye for Maya

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<div>Our dad has always been a source of strength and love for our family. He has touched the lives of many with his kindness, generosity, and unwavering spirit. Throughout his illness, he has shown incredible courage and resilience, but the time has come for us to prepare for his final journey.
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Assist the Dame Family in Their Time of Need

<p>On behalf of Michae,l Zoe,  MacKenzie, and his grandchildren Myla, Estella, Alaura and Dru.  I am hoping to lessen the financial burden of the loss of their father Eddie Fernet . On August 16, Ed gained his wings. 
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Eddie Fernet

<span style="font-size:17px;">On Dec 24th , Timmy aka Slim was found unresponsive at his home. He is currently at Samaritan in the ICU.  At the very moment, we are unsure what the outcome is going to be. MY PRAYER WARRIORS, PLEASE SAY A PRAYER FOR TIMMY</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:17px;">Slim has 5 children, 4 currently still living at home .  As most, if not all of you know,  Timmy loves his family and he is family to me. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:17px;">Tim Sylvester, Eddie Fernet and I want to ensure financially that the kids have food,  transportation etc for them as Slim was the sole provider for his family  . He had recently lost his job was without a vehicle. With Timmy not having any type of life insurance,  we just want to do our best to lessen any financial burdens</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:17px;">We are not sure what the outcome will be for Slim, but one thing for sure Slim is loved by many and right now he needs our help</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:17px;">Please share</span>

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<div>This GoFund me will be used to build a financial cushion for my adopted Daughter Shariya Small (now 18!) and her now 4 year old triplets Serenitee, Samari, and Sarayah (how are they this big already?!?) Our adoption story has gained national attention over the last year and a half and what an adventure it has been! I would like to set her and the Triplets up for their future and adventures in life as she grows into a strong woman and mother ❤️ funds are being used for current family needs (there are 9 of us in the home including me, the boys, Shariya and the triplets!), college funding for Shariya (she has completed a year of college already!), future housing costs and needs for her and the triplets when they are ready to live on their own later on.
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Katrina Mullen, Shariya Small and her Triplets

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<div>I wanted to inform you that Scott is home and resting comfortably with hospice and myself caring for him. Unfortunately this is an extremely aggressive form of cancer and Scott is quickly losing his fight. 
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Support Scott Guiton in his battle with Cancer

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Lateche Norris Found Safe!

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<div>Hola mi nombre es Jacob y tengo 5 años<br />En junio de 2021 después de múltiples visitas a la sala de emergencias  y después de haber sido diagnosticado erróneamente (por negligencia médica) durante unos meses, finalmente me diagnosticaron un tumor cerebral raro, fui ingresado inmediatamente en el Hospital Infantil y fui programado para la cirugía más agresiva y con más daños colaterales para extirpar el tumor. Era casi seguro que iba a perder la vista junto con tantas otras cosas. Después de revisar la resonancia magnética, uno de los médicos sugirió que buscáramos una segunda opinión en el hospital de investigación infantil de St Jude y todos mis registros fueron enviados y revisados por la junta tumoral y fui "aceptado" y me dieron un plan médico mucho mejor 
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Help Jacob fight a brain tumor

On Thursday, September 6, the Baker family lost their home and their possessions in a house fire. Jim, his wife Sherry, and his 90 year old mother all resided in the house. Jim sustained 2nd degree burns to his head, face, and arms.<br /><br />Jim recently retired from his long-time position at the Regional Food Bank, where he helped people in need for over 20 years. <br /><br />Please help Jim and his family get back on their feet!<br /><br />PS- You may have noticed this fundraiser was created by Friends of the Bakers on behalf of Sarah Ryan. Since Jim isn't very computer savvy, his daughter, Sarah, is acting as the liaison to accept the withdrawals! Please email Bethany Moxey at <a href="mailto:[email redacted]">[email redacted] </a>with any questions or concerns!

Baker House Fire Recovery Fund

Hello my name is Danielle Gaston, I am 31 years old and live in Schenectady, NY. I was recently diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer.  I served in our military the Army from 2003-2005.  I was most recently working as a Title Clerk for Destination Kia in Albany NY, they let me go just this past Saturday telling me that I have to take care of my medical issues and whether I am sick or healthy it is a business, and business must go on as usual. I am in desperate need for support in this awful time. I am already struggling trying to pay for the first medication of many to come. I recently participated in the Fight against Breast Cancer walk that took place in Washington Park. <br /><br />The he plan for my treatment is a lumpectomy followed by radiation and chemotherapy. Since the " wonderful" people at Destination Kia let me go, my insurance is set to cancel on November 14.  I normally wouldn't ask for help, but I need to swallow my pride and ask. <br />I thank everyone in advance for their support and generosity in these very trying times. I am a fighter and I will beat this. I will keep everyone posted on the latest.<br /><br />again thank you all for everything.

Danielle's Breast Cancer Fund

Below is what running this year's Boston Marathon means to me...<br /><br /><strong>"I Remember"</strong><br /><br />I remember my first race as a child "“ The Cohoes Turkey Trot, Thanksgiving Day morning.  I was maybe 10 or 11.  I remember it being cold and my skinny little legs were frozen.  I have never really been a runner but my father has been one his whole life.  To this day he'll run a few miles every morning before work regardless of the weather; for him it is a necessity that keeps him together.<br /><br />I remember him always coming back from a run, stretching out, and doing sit-ups.  I remember laying down right next to him and doing sit-ups myself, wedging my legs underneath the coffee table in the living room the way he would for stability (cheater).  As a little boy whatever your dad does, you want to do.  He used to run so I wanted to run.  I finally had my chance.<br /><br />I remember lining up at the starting line with the others "“ maybe there were twenty or thirty of us.  I was nervous as hell.  There were zombies everywhere (that's not factually accurate but my editor said nobody gives a shit these days unless zombies are involved).  Most of the parents were right up there at the start doing all of the annoying shit parents do when their special little athlete is about to burst into action (ugh!).  LeRoy played it cool though.  A moment later we were off:<br /><br />I remember staying in front with whoever was leading just to make sure I was safe.  Right turn here, up this hill, down that hill, dodge the pothole, my lungs are now freezing!  I remember taking a wrong turn because many of the idiot parents were running alongside their kids screaming and yelling directions "“ most of which incorrect.  I remember sprinting to get back on track.<br /><br />Before the last turn and the final stretch, I remember one of the fathers yelling, "Now's your chance Ashley, now's your chance, go to the front!  You can do it, go to the front now!"<br /><br />YEAH RIGHT ASHLEY!  Second prize = turkey, gravy, and you're doing dishes!  I remember running like hell and crossing the finish line before everyone else.  I remember the trophy they gave me and how awesome I felt.  I remember my prize looking back at me from the dinner table in the spot where all of the adults had rested a wine glass at theirs.  Wish I still had that one.<br /><br />Once I was a big boy and could run with Dad it was onto the Troy Turkey Trot 5K.  To this day it is truly one of my favorite days of the year "“ I don't think we've missed one together in ten or fifteen years.<br /><br />But our memories can bring us back home to emotions of all sorts.  As I write this, I recall my most recent defeat.  It seemed like a small defeat at the time but as I think of it now I realize how much some of the little things can actually mean.  The Managing Director of our charitable foundation sent an email out to the firm to see who would be interested in volunteering for the Boston Marathon this year. A tremendous honor and opportunity for many to me marked the reality of an opportunity lost.  Another promise unfulfilled.  A disappointment I was sure I'd find a way to justify.  The volunteer email meant there would be no bib email.<br /><br />I remember tax day last year.  Tax day happened to fall on Patriots' Day in Massachusetts giving us an extra day to file our taxes (or in many cases file for an extension to do our taxes "“ get on it people).  It is a holiday for us in Mass., one of the most amazing days of the year if you've ever been to Boston for it.  It is Marathon Monday.  Our office is closed in the Hancock Tower since the streets surrounding us are a block from the finish line and host the family waiting areas, medical tents, and refreshment tables "“ a bit of a sanctuary for runners who have just completed their journey.  No day off for me that day though, I was at the office catching up on work.<br /><br />I remember picking up my head at the sound of the cannon going off.  It shook our building "“ I remember thinking, "That's interesting.  Men's Elite runner must have crossed the finish line."  Head back down.  It seemed almost instant:a second blast; again shaking our building.  "Wait, we don't shoot off cannons in the city and the Elite Runners would've finished hours ago.  WTF?!"<br /><br />I remember walking to the corner office where I was met by the hand full of others who were working that day as well.  As we looked down at Boylston St we could see the rising clouds of smoke.  There was a frantic element to the normal chaos below but from nineteen floors up we could not quite figure much out.  We could see some things, yet at the same time we could not quite see anything.  I remember being anxious.  This was a new experience.  We each went somewhere for a laptop, a television, our phones; CNN, Twitter, NESN  "“ anyplace that could provide instant answers and perhaps direction, but there was nothing yet.  Sometimes, in moments like these, nothing comes instantaneously.  After a while, we decided that remaining in the building was no longer wise.  When I got to the ground floor there was only one way to exit.  When I stepped out onto the street there was only one direction to walk.<br /><br />I remember making calls to those who I knew would worry once the news broke to assure them I was fine and was heading home.  I know I startled and worried each of the people I spoke with as I was their first messenger of something likely terrible occurring at that moment.  I certainly felt frustrated at my inability to give them any answers but at the end of the call at least they knew I was fine.  I arrived home and remained glued to the television, answering calls when they came through, sending texts, replying to emails.  Perhaps you remember how the rest of that day unfolded for you.<br /><br />I remember my alarm going off the next morning.  I hadn't been sleeping so that was instead my indication to get out of bed.  I was going to shower, put my suit on, and walk to the office "“ there wasn't even a question.  I remember the eerie silence as I walked through the South End to the Back Bay, and ultimately back to the Hancock Tower.  Much of the Back Bay had been closed off as an active crime scene but our building remained open.  The morning work traffic had been replaced by military traffic it seemed.  I remember Humvees and camouflage, walky talkies and assault rifles, blocked off streets, and increased scrutiny with each step.  I remember entering our building and upon passing through security taking a deep breath.  This is not Tuesday.<br /><br />I remember again looking down through the windows at the scene below.  It seemed almost as chaotic as yesterday yet there were no people today.  With an active crime scene and investigation underway and with the city's resources focused elsewhere nothing had been touched here in this one-time sanctuary.  Life had been evacuated and its things had been left to lie.  After yesterday's al fresco diners had leapt to their feet mid-meal to flee the danger, and their wait staff had been evacuated, their lunches and their drinks remained where they were last touched - for days - perhaps hoping their diners would return to finish them.  The streets did not get immediately cleaned. The tents and scaffold did not get immediately broken down and removed.  Residents were not allowed to return to their homes.  I remember how our city's most vibrant area had become a complete dead-zone.  I remember the silence walking along the barriers alone at lunchtime "“ a silence I had never heard while living in the city.  A silence interrupted only by a faint police siren racing somewhere blocks away.  A silence in our city I hope to never find myself walking through again.<br /><br />I remember what listening to the radio was like that week.  I remember what turning on the television brought.  I remember what going onto the internet was like.  I remember going home at the end of the week and seeing friends and family; and the look on their face as they wanted so much to know what it was like in Boston but were so careful and hesitant to ask.  Maybe they were also reading my face.  <br /><br />I remember the President coming to speak at the church on my street just a few blocks away.  I remember the Secret Service needing to sweep our building and roof deck.  They shut down traffic to Washington St the morning of so when I left home for work at 7:00 am on the 18th and decided I'd walk by on my way to the office there wasn't a car on the road or another person on the street.  As I came around the bend and the church came into view before me were lines of Police in their all-black uniforms marching up and down the street.  One of the oldest and most beautiful churches in Boston was now outfitted unnaturally with modern metal detectors.  I had friends attending that service because we had friends caught in the explosions.  I just wanted to see and to be a part.  I remember taking what I though was a great picture with my phone but that was two phones ago.<br /><br />Yet I also remember feeling strong.  I remember how determined I was to carry on.  I remember how confident I felt that we would catch whoever was responsible for this.  I remember friends setting up fundraisers online to help support loved ones who were in the midst of fighting for their lives.  I remember the Boston Bruins game two days after the Marathon when after Rene Rancourt started off the national anthem, the crowd then picked up and sang together as one.  I remember being proud of all those first responders be they policemen, firefighters, first aid, volunteers, runners, or spectators who helped those who could not help themselves on that day.  I remember how our city came together as the week drew on and we drew closer to this event's conclusion.<br /><br />Soon after, the city began opening some of the streets that had been shuddered.  There were less and less soldiers and more and more civilians - people.  Each day more blocks would become accessible.  Flowers and candles would be the start of tiny memorials in places near the event where someone felt appropriate.  People would bring chalk and write notes on the street "“ notes to a friend or loved one, notes to Boston, sincere prayers, and even words of encouragement.<br /><br />Once Boylston St finally reopened and we could again return to where this tragic event occurred, we would see all of these memorials brought together into one.  Thousands would write notes on their running shoes, and then tie them to the fences and trees surrounding the memorial.  Children would come with their parents and leave behind their teddy bears with a note to the eight year old that lost his life.  One bear in particular held a sign that read, "No more hurting people."  Marathoners would return and so would their families.  <br /><br />What also arrives is the reality of the true devastation from that afternoon.  A devastation that would have a profound effect on those most directly touched by the tragedy.  I remember a lot from that day and the days that followed.  But my memories do not matter as much as those of the families of the three individuals who were killed in the bombing.  My memories are not nearly as dear as those of the family of the MIT officer killed while on duty; nor those of the friends and families of the others injured on that day.<br /><br />I remember walking down Boylston St myself the morning it was reopened.  I remember approaching the finish line which is close to where the first bomb went off.  People had returned to come and see, and pay their respects as I did.  All of the debris had been cleaned up, the stains of that day had been washed away, and the damage partly repaired.  Much of the silence had remained on that first day though.  I remember so distinctly the faces of everyone who returned with me to see.  I can see them now.  I remember feeling connected with them yet recall being so careful not to make eye contact with anyone.  I can remember as I approached how difficult it had become to keep it together.  How my vision became a blur as I fought unsuccessfully to keep the tears back.  I must have been thinking that if I could avoid eye contact with someone else that was there and feeling the same things I was feeling, perhaps I could keep it together.  How foolish.<br /><br />I continued walking down Boylston and as I did I remembered my first few experiences in Boston on Marathon Monday.  My friends and I would gather at a bar called Vox Populi on that same street.  Friends of ours had worked there so for two or three years that is where we would spend our day.  I remember drinking Cape Coders outside where they had a little area cordoned off, watching the runners so excited that they could see the finish.  A few years later we had moved on from that spot.  Vox closed its doors subsequently and was replaced by Forum "“ a fact that had completely escaped me this past week until I approached the second gathering of people paying their respects.  Directly in front of Forum and its outdoor dining area was a newly planted tree "“ only two or three steps from where I had so many great memories.  This was where the second explosion had occurred.<br /><br />On my way back to the office I remember saying to myself "“ this coming year I would run the marathon.  I would get the physical therapy I had put off.  I would address my lingering injuries.  I would go to yoga.  I would get back in shape.  I went to office where Rich sits and told him "“ if we can get a bib next year for the marathon I will run for the foundation.  I mean it.<br /><br />I meant it.  I had thrown around the idea of running many times but things would get in the way.  The snow.  My excuses.  How I worked too much.  My back (poor me).  Why can't they hold it in the fall?  I don't have time.  I like exercising but I don't want to run that much.  I don't have anything to prove.  It's dark when I leave work and it's dangerous to run in the dark.  You can't train for a marathon on a treadmill.  I don't want to run before work because I'll get to the office too late.  I'm getting older "“ I should've done it closer to when I graduated.  Life.  Life always happens.  It's happening right now.  It certainly happened a lot in the past 11 months.  I look at myself now and think about my life 11 months ago and I feel like I stumbled through a worm hole.  I hope The Cosmos goes over that one soon because I could use a refresher.<br /><br />A week after the marathon turned into a month, which turned into summer.  The fall seems to always be so busy and we know what's right around the corner from fall.  So much to do yet so little time.  So many distractions.  Train for the marathon?  I remember thinking about it on my way back to NY for Thanksgiving as I got excited about the Turkey Trot again.  I remember it seemed like forever since I had even thought about it.  Had I even gone to PT?  Once?  I had been going to yoga.  I was so thankful for yoga "“ I probably said it out loud in my car.  If you know me you're probably sick of hearing about it.  I was feeling good though and thought, "This needs to be the year."  We'll see - I have a lot going on right now.<br /><br />The next thing I remember was the volunteer email at the end of January and that sinking feeling of disappointment.  My reply to Rich was, "I guess if I can't run it I can volunteer."<br /><br />His response back, "It might still be a possibility for you.  It is in the works.  Train. Train. Train."<br /><br />That was all I needed to hear.  I immediately found a training program, skipped ahead eight weeks, and the next day I was running around the Esplanade with my arch nemesis Polar Vortex.<br /><br />It would be another seven weeks before I officially overcame my recent defeat receiving word that we had been given one of the last remaining invitations available.  I remember the emotions I felt one week ago as I looked up from my screens and saw Rich standing at my door with two thumbs up - instant excitement.  The happy sensation of victory accompanied by a swell of emotion.  Validation that my time running through the rain and snow and blistering wind, through the soreness of in my legs, the swelling of my knee, that hamstring muscle that was either going to snap off my leg or send me to the looney bin with every step just thinking that it might: was to be for my ultimate date with this year's Boston Marathon.<br /><br />You learn a lot about yourself when you're training for a marathon "“ especially in the Northeast, especially during the winter.  And in my seven weeks of training where I did not yet have an invitation to run, when all I had was the desire to be in training and to once again be connected to the community I love I learned what the Boston Marathon meant to me.  On days when I was convinced we would not get our bib, I remembered the Ayn Rand quote I posted above my laptop "“ and I would continue running.  When I was frustrated with this injury or that, I would remember how grateful I was that I was even physically able to run "“ a blessing that not everyone who was part of last year's events has.  This is why I am running the Marathon.<br /><br />I am running the Boston Marathon for those who lost their lives last year.  I am running for those who were physically and mentally harmed by the two blasts on Patriots' Day.  I am running for the families whose memories are all they have now.  I am running for Boston.  I am running for our community because we are strong.  I am running for me because I am strong.  And I will always remember.<br /><br /><strong>Your generous gift to our charity...<br /><br /></strong>Would mean the world to me.<br /><br />Is 100% tax deductible as our foundation is a registered 501(c)(3) organization.  I will personally send you your tax documentation.<br /><br />A portion of which will be directed to the <strong>American Red Cross</strong> in honor of the victims of last years Boston Marathon.  This is an organization that provided not only support for families this past year but whose work saved lives in the hours and days following that tragic event.<br /><br />The balance of your gifts will be directed by The Baystate Financial Charitable Foundation.  They are dedicated to supporting community-based children's causes in Greater Boston and throughout New England.  You can learn more at their website...<br /><br /><a href="http://www.baystatefoundation.org/"><a href="http://www.baystatefoundation.org" target="_blank" class="" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer">http://www.baystatefoundation.org</a></a>

My Boston Marathon 2014

Baystate Financial Charitable Foundation

Jessica Baldwin

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