The Litter Man

Okay if sometimes I get a little different or emotional on here for those of you that don't know what I deal with daily this is what I've dealt with for almost 18 years since I ran into a tree it over 60 MPH and was told I should not be alive everyday since that accident I have felt nausea and felt sick everyday I have puked every day since that accident I puked for hours every morning like routine I can't not get away from it I have a neurological condition from the brain injury called hyper salivation which is not a fun thing and yeah some people may point out I don't use a lot of punctuation and grammar because it's much easier for me to speak into the microphone and let it type it but on top of dealing with the brain injury I have degenerative disc disease of the lumbar thoracic and cervical I have had a spinal fusion operation on C3 C4 and C5 vertebrae in my neck and then years later had C5 and 6 vertebrae surgery Fusion in my neck not a day goes by that I don't feel like garbage and feel pukey and feel like puking and do puke not a day goes by where I get a break from nausea I try to act normal around everybody but my head inside it's not doing well I would love to have a break a normal day I haven't had a normal feeling day in 18 years so I apologize if there are days when I post stuff or I say stuff but my cognitive abilities have issues my issues have issues on top of major anxiety issues and this is probably the first time in a long time that I've ever mentioned everybody what I deal with and how much I deal with on a daily basis not a day goes by that I don't have my light-headed nauseous puke you feeling feeling sick in the head I get fatigue bad and the only way I stop it A lot of times is forcing myself out the door in the morning to ride it's what makes me feel better but my trike has been broke down for three or four days and I have just not had the mental capacity to fix it because I cannot concentrate with my brain and anxiety and everything else that has been going on lately the last few days over the last 18 years I have been on so many medications I was on 19 medications up until the end of the last year when I stopped at all when I moved and got down to just one medication but now I'm finding out that I have to go on more because my anxiety and everything is just getting out of hand lately and I don't like medications but I've been on every type of medication that they give cancer patients going through chemotherapy I've been on so many medications I've been to neurologist I've been to brain injury specialist I've been to my primary I've been to so many different doctors and Specialists over the years I've done so much physical therapy over the years and there's nothing they've ever been able to do that was effective so I apologize if I come here at times and I am emotional or make comments that may seem emotional but it's draining day after day after day to always feel sick to never get a day when you feel perfectly normal and that doesn't even count the pain issues with the deterrative disc disease from my neck to my lower back that doesn't count all the other things that I've dealt with and all the medications and procedures through the pain end of it I'm the type of person that could walk into any pain clinic I want right now and get pain medications I could get pain pills so easily but I don't want them that's why I stopped taking all pills I have been through stuff like radio frequency ablation look that one up and imagine doing that several times without sedation a very painful procedure I've had cortisone shots steroid shots injection after injection after injection so I'm just on here right now to apologize if people see that I am going through some issues right now and to explain why I am the way I am I deal with a lot daily and the times it's overwhelming I'm not posting any video because I haven't posted any video this week for the last 4 or 5 days my bike is broke down and I've not been able to fix it because my brain injury is taking over my emotions and I can't deal with feeling sick and concentrate on trying to fix a bike and I don't really want to do videos right now I have been in tears for over 24 hours and emotionally drained

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I'm a city cleanup volunteer for two local cities. I am looking to improve the work quality and save time by locating a power broom. Please. At this point, even a used one would work, so I don't have to use a shovel and scraper as much. The bending over is not quite helping my back. And I don't even care about the cash. Please go to my Facebook or YouTube profile. There is an Amazon wish list. Purchase that way or have one sent directly. I don't really care which way; I just would love to have one to improve my volunteering work that I do every day. Watch my videos and follow me on YouTube and Facebook, please. I would love the bike lane street sweeper, as I tend to scrape a lot of leaves and moss and stuff off. If you watch my videos, you'll see, but it is a lot more than a power broom.