The ultimate therapy

Firstly I would like to thank everyone who is taking the time to read this.. THANK YOU. I am an Afghanistan war veteran. During the time I was in Afghanistan I served as a medic. I can not count how many casualties I encountered, (those were and are the real heroes). After 12 months of working everyday in this traumatic/austere environment I developed a lot of guilt. I treated myself as if I was the one who had injured or killed these brave servicemen and women. I didn't let my symptoms show at all... I didn't want to be weak or be "that guy". Holding all this in took a very strong toll on my mind, heart, soul, and body. It got so bad that I could no longer control or contain my inner feelings. I was hospitalized several times for severe psychiatric treatment. No medication would help, it would only turn me into a medicated zombie. After struggling for several years, in and out of psychiatric wards, tons of medications, therapy, and a plethora of other attempts at treatment I came to realize there is no relief from this sickness. Seeing my wife and my toddler daughter suffer so much because of me made things even worse. Then one day I discovered skydiving. I can't explain it but jumping out of an airplane at 10,000 ft and above forced me to "let go". It was the first time I had felt free in years. It changed my life. Something about skydiving sets me free from these terrible feelings I have inside. Im now trying to start a new journey. A therapeutic journey that actually works for me. Best of all is Its completely  natural... no medications required. I just need a little help to get this therapeutic journey off the ground (pun kinda intended). I want to become a certified parachutist. This way I can jump solo, verses having to do a tandem jump with someone strapped to my back. Which happens to be the most expensive way to skydive.  If you can find it in your heart to contribute I would be most grateful! I promise you would be helping this military veteran in the best possible way. Thank you!