Help me

I live in a household of people who make me want to puke. Selfish, violent, self-absorbed, cruel. I live in a household of people who constantly make me want to kill myself, who never made me feel worthy of anything, a failure, a disappoinment.
I like in household of people who had their heads hanging low as they watched my brother steal money, lie and destroy this family for cocaine, and I've seen those same people raised their hands against me for crying, because they thought I had no reason to.
I have a family who expects orders to be followed when I'm the one given, expects duties to be carried out because I'm the only one given. expects everything to be perfect on my part because I'm a girl, and I'm expected to. My mother just punched me and slapped multiple times for crying and getting angry over the last injustice, my father just pushed me and glared at me like he wants to kill me. And all this happened while everyone watched, and did nothing.

Please help me get a place where I can be safe. Where I can feel worthy of taking space and living.