Janavi Needs Our Help

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A graduate of Goddard College where she studied poetry, photography and media, Janavi Held (Sri Jahnavi dd) was an up-and-coming writer and professional photographer when she fell ill at the age of forty-six. Despite chronic illness, Janavi has taken shelter of Bhakti yoga and her practice of Krishna consciousness. Having first met devotees at the age of nineteen, she trained at the ISKCON Denver ashram and dedicated her life to the sankirtana mission.

For the past six years, Janavi has been ravaged by Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, Abdominal Adhesions, and Cachexia (wasting), a condition of perpetual pain and progressive weakness that is largely unresponsive to treatment. Due to the growing intensity of her illness, she is now bedridden and completely debilitated. More recently, she has been deprived of moving her hands—a crushing blow for an artist of her caliber.


Janavi has endured her circumstances gracefully.

As demonstrated throughout her decades of service, Janavi's faith, dedication, and determination enabled her to push through her pain and continue to write. In 2017, she published a book of devotional poetry and photography entitled Letters to My Oldest Friend. This book has been heralded as a gem of devotional literature.

Janavi was also a contributing author in the recently published anthology, Bhakti Blossoms: A Collection of Contemporary Vaishnavi Poetry. Last year, two of her poems were shortlisted for the prestigious Hamilton House International Poetry Prize.


Janavi needs our help.

Having taken Janavi into her home three years ago, Janavi's devoted sister, Sue, is struggling to maintain Janavi's needs. A homecare provider attends to Janavi during the day, but she now requires 24-hour care. Tragically, Janavi's health insurance does not cover homecare. In addition to medication costs and hospital fees, Janavi is drowning under a swelling ocean of uncovered medical expenses.

Janavi is alone (no children, no spouse, no living parents). Thus, a group of Janavi's friends have come together to organize a fundraising campaign, with the hopes of mitigating the pressure of Janavi's financial burden. If your circumstances permit, please donate to her fund. We thank you for your kindness. Hare Krishna.


Janavi is praised by the devotees.

"Like many God-inspired poets of India’s Bhakti or devotional past (Mirabai and Chandidas come easily to mind), Janavi Held—writer, photographer, cineaste, observer of small miracles—chronicles the arrhythmia of a heart in love with Divinity. Letters to My Oldest Friend is a revelation. In elegant, spare verse and contemplative visual imagery, she gently cautions that we are victims of speeding postmodernism at risk of losing of souls, and that we will find the tools of our salvation in the quiet, unassuming details of everyday life. Here is a much needed roadmap to our inner geography, chartered by a gifted voice of conscience and our own better selves. Read, look, savor, and be inspired." -Yogesvara das (ACBSP)

"Sri Jahnavi has poured her heart out in her writings and has contributed much to the world of devotional literature for everyone's benefit. Hopefully all who now know about her can contribute for her benefit and help a sincere devotee." -Nidra dasi (ACBSP)

"Jahnavi is a super-sincere Vaisnavi. It is so sad to see her suffer in this way. Anyone who has met her or has read her poetry will instantly be impressed by her abilities and her devotion. I'm hoping there is a way we can come together to help her in her time of need." -Vraja Vihari das

"The hearts of Vaishnavas are so compassionate that upon hearing of others in pain (especially a godsister) we naturally feel moved to do anything we can to help. Thank you for extending your heart to Jahnavi. She is, undoubtedly, a most beautiful person." -Krishna Kanta dasi
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I am so sorry to have to tell you that Janavi died this past Saturday.

I think it helped Janavi to know that there are people out there who care. To be a home bound patient without an adequate diagnosis is very scary. The medical system is just not set up to take care of a person like that. And there seemed to be little understanding of or interest in Janavi’s symptoms. At times we felt more like refugees then patient and caregiver.

I wish that we could have found a solution for her but I am relieved that the most terrible part of her journey ended when she was allowed to receive hospice.

The inpatient hospice took very good care of her and I felt that she was less stressed out there then she had been at home. She died peacefully with her friends by her side.

If you wish to make a donation at this time, it will help with some of the cost of cremation.

I am so grateful for your support, and your many kind words and prayers. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who commented or donated. You made Janavi’s journey a little less frightening and brought us some comfort.


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I am so sad to have to add this update. Janavi has been taken to an inpatient hospice. Your donations have made it possible for pay for much of our desperate search for help, and have also helped with her home care needs - which have recently been increasing every day.

However now that Janavi is inpatient in a hospice, her expenses have dropped. I don't think that she will be able to come home again. I’m so sorry to tell you this.

I am leaving this fundraiser up in the hope that something will shift and she will begin to improve but I don’t think this is likely. I will make sure that any money not spent for Janavi goes to ISKCON Denver. Janavi has always donated to them whenever she could.

I’m sorry if this comes as a shock. We have never been able to adequately understand her illness. It has often increased in severity rapidly and without mercy. We never understood why her weight was always so low but I now think that her illness was damaging her digestive system all along.

For the last two year Janavi thought that she might be dying. But she always looked for solutions and tried to get help. She has always had a great will to live and she came back from each crushing setback still fighting for her health.


Dear kind people please pray for Janavi.

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Several weeks ago, I read Janavi's poetry for the first time. I was struck by the depth of presence within her poems and decided to reach out to her, knowing that she was ill. I felt a deep pull within my heart to help her and offered to reorganize her fundraising campaign. In so doing, I have poured through her biography and work. What I learned is that Janavi is an artist through and through, inspired by her profound love of nature and God. In more ways than one, she is truly a godsister.

In the spirit of offering charity during the month of Kartik, please share Janavi's story with others, give them her association, and invite them to help.

Ali Krishna dd

"Sri Jahnavi was 19 when she followed the sound of the mrdanga and came upon the Harinama party on Boulder, Colorado‘s Pearl Street Mall. She was instantly attracted, and we met as she received a book and stood mesmerized by the blissful devotees' chanting and dancing. Quickly her spiritual life unfolded. She came to the Boulder Krishna House feast, soon moved in, was serving on Harinama and kitchen services for the programs. Then she moved to the Denver brahmacharini asrama and was doing full time sankirtana, with the determination of a yogi, going through many austerities that most young people would find very difficult to do. She was always sensitive, poetic, talented, and pushed on with much desire to serve despite bouts of ill health. After years of living elsewhere, we reunited when her illness was manifesting more. We spent hours sharing how to deal with illness and learn to be Krishna conscious. Simultaneously, she poured her heart out in her writings and contributed much to the world of devotional literature for everyone's benefit. Hopefully all who now know about her can contribute for her benefit and help a sincere devotee." -Nidra dasi (ACBSP)
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Dear friends,

There are many people to thank. Firstly thank you to everyone who donated or shared our posts!

By a miracle, it would seem, we are being given a used Bemer Pro by a compassionate doctor in Switzerland, at a very deep discount. We were delighted and relieved when he offered to help.

We are just about to start Janavi’s Crowdmed account and are hoping this model can lend help, as it's impossible on Medicaid to find a team of specialists for her condition, especially since her condition has bewildered every doctor she has seen.

Our fundraiser has flatlined at the moment and our expenses are mounting; we are out of ideas and people to reach out to. So, we reach out to you with this question: how do we raise the next $7,000? Please be in touch with any ideas you may have.

Unfortunately Janavi’s condition is in rapid decline; she says she is feeling worse everyday and her moment to moment life is practically unbearable at this point.

Janavi wanted to thank you with the only thing she has to offer: her poetry. When I asked what she would like to share she decided on this:


You can also purchase her book here:


Warm Regards,
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