You Are Not Alone in Your Darkness
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Hi! I am writing to gather support to help pay for medical expenses and treatment of my chronic illness. I have been unwell now for over 3 years. After countless doctors’ visits, tests and operations I was finally diagnosed with the tick-borne illness Rickettsia in 2017. I have also been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue and mould illness. The symptoms of these are varied including chronic joint, muscle and nerve pain, headaches, sore throat, dizziness and chronic fatigue.
For most of 2016 I couldn't really leave the house due to how bad it was and I couldn't work. This was almost the worst part of all, that I had to let go of releasing my new album and couldn't play gigs anymore. I couldn't play guitar because of joint pain in my fingers. I recently tried gigging again but it was too difficult and I had bad relapses of chronic pain and fatigue.
I have experienced varying degrees of success with my treatment, with some of it making a significant difference, but I am still struggling especially financially. I am in a very difficult situation in this regard. There have been many medical expenses including doctors’ appointments, medication, supplements and treatments. I have had to borrow a lot of money to pay for these. This is why I am reaching out. It probably would have been good for me to do this earlier, but I thought I would be well enough to get back to gigging by now.
Another incredibly difficult side of my situation is that I have developed mould illness as a result of living in a home in a (beautiful) rainforest gully. I have lost a lot of meaningful things that were in storage including 15 years of song writing and recordings that were on analog tape, years of writing, furniture, personal effects and also my collections of cds, books and records. This has been a very distressing experience and some of the things that were lost cannot be replaced. As a result of this I have decided to move to a drier climate in WA. I am leaving for there at the end of this week. My son lives over there, and I am really looking forward to seeing him.
As I write, I am listening to my favorite songwriter Tori Amos and the lyrics of the song right now are "You are not alone in your darkness..." The symbology of this is amazing as I am really being called to reach out for support and end the experience of being so alone and struggling and trying to cope on my own.
I'm sending out lots of love and gratitude that I have the opportunity to reach out here. I know that once I am well again, I will be back performing and recording, doing what I love most in the world, being out on the road playing music, creating, connecting and inspiring people again. x Rebecca
For most of 2016 I couldn't really leave the house due to how bad it was and I couldn't work. This was almost the worst part of all, that I had to let go of releasing my new album and couldn't play gigs anymore. I couldn't play guitar because of joint pain in my fingers. I recently tried gigging again but it was too difficult and I had bad relapses of chronic pain and fatigue.
I have experienced varying degrees of success with my treatment, with some of it making a significant difference, but I am still struggling especially financially. I am in a very difficult situation in this regard. There have been many medical expenses including doctors’ appointments, medication, supplements and treatments. I have had to borrow a lot of money to pay for these. This is why I am reaching out. It probably would have been good for me to do this earlier, but I thought I would be well enough to get back to gigging by now.
Another incredibly difficult side of my situation is that I have developed mould illness as a result of living in a home in a (beautiful) rainforest gully. I have lost a lot of meaningful things that were in storage including 15 years of song writing and recordings that were on analog tape, years of writing, furniture, personal effects and also my collections of cds, books and records. This has been a very distressing experience and some of the things that were lost cannot be replaced. As a result of this I have decided to move to a drier climate in WA. I am leaving for there at the end of this week. My son lives over there, and I am really looking forward to seeing him.
As I write, I am listening to my favorite songwriter Tori Amos and the lyrics of the song right now are "You are not alone in your darkness..." The symbology of this is amazing as I am really being called to reach out for support and end the experience of being so alone and struggling and trying to cope on my own.
I'm sending out lots of love and gratitude that I have the opportunity to reach out here. I know that once I am well again, I will be back performing and recording, doing what I love most in the world, being out on the road playing music, creating, connecting and inspiring people again. x Rebecca
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Rebecca Moore
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North Wollongong NSW
