NHS NEGLECT NO JUCTICE JUST LIES

so I never new how to start this but thought I would just write  from the heart this is Rukaya known as berry thanks to her then 3 year old sister when pregnant i was so excited use to sit and just laugh to my self imagining all Rukaya would do once she was born and would grow to be a cheeky monkey  being naughty so on but that's not how our story goes I ended up in hospital a week before my contraction decided to begin with pains on my scar you see I had 3 previous c sections due to complications and then a week after returning home I woke up to agony in my back so made my way to hospital at 10/11am ish  I had the heads up that I was contracting and got taken to a ward waiting  ages and ages just to be seen by a doctor at 12/1 pm ish and had the all clear that baby was fine from that time to 7 Ish I was not monitored at all and no midwife was any were to be seen the baby pooed in me and I was sat in it untill they came to take me to deliver my baby girl. Rukaya was rushed away from me and taken to icu only 2 days after I got told she would die they explained it as she was very poorly which to me means sick so after the hardship of it all and Rukaya fighting through we got her off oxygen and managed to take her home at that point I got told she was well and good but if only it was......
only 2 weeks after I noticed her eyes shaking she was always in the same position she never spoke nor cryed I was worried and took her back 11 times for them to say she was okay but I new she wasn't and so got my health visitor to speak to my consultant who explained that I was concerned my consultant booked a Mri scan for the Friday and 3 days before it I got a phone call it was my health Visiter and she sounded concerned she asked if I was sittin down and what I heard would change my life and kids life dramatically....
she told me that Rukaya suffered a server brain injury I couldn't breath but new I had to keep it together even now just staring at her, that day draws back on me and it makes me sick how this can just happen but that wasn't just it we found out she was parshley blind and deaf aswell and to put the icing on the cake they predicted 11 years for her :,(

 i hate them passionately as they ruined her life and can just get away with it all I got was a sorry and no solicitor can bring justice as they say they followed there procedure  even the midwifes have apologised and told me that from now they will monitor mother closely  but what about my baby she lost her childhood and adulthood 

she will never walk sit-up and say mommy but being a single mom with no friends or family around me to help I turn to faith and no that with faith all is possible Ive tryed to write a gofundme before and end up deleting it but I know now if you don't knock on the door for help you will never be heard I wanna be able to give Rukaya a life of opportunity and make her a sensory room I also am praying to take her to germeny to be reassessed and for a second oppinion But no it costs money and may not ever be possible but I just wanna give her everything and more it breaks me as I can't be weak as I homeschool my 3 other girls and care for Rukaya so have to always be strong but God is good and life is a test and I believe that with patience comes ease. Thank you for taking your time to read this please if you have any advise or have been in the same boat please email me any help will be appreciated and for any one with a special child may God cure protect and bless you all Ameen


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she is my gold at the end of the rainbow