Laid off after ten years

I always use to be the one to donate not matter what cause I thought one day it be me asking for help and to think today it would be me asking for help.. Yesterday I was laid off of my ten year job .. with one check left, and my rent due 2/1/19 Friday  and tons of bills left to pay ,my car bill, my medicine for my chronic illness which I was cut off my company insurance since I’m not employed any longer ....Last night I thought taking my life was easy way out then all this suffering and my attempt only reminded me that I do have a meaning to live God doesn’t want me leaving earth yet please forgive me lord ....  then my close fam and friends to reach out to me only proved to that my attempt last night was selfish because people do care and love and I would be hurting a lot of people who care :(  I’m not mentally stable I deal with axienty and depression and what im going tru isn’t helping my attacks and no sleep haven’t ate much, as we all know  I may be losing my apartment becusse I can’t afford to pay for it on 2/1 and need my car rather to get me to my job hunting can’t with that one check pay for both .....sad part is i have no where to go if I have to leave my apt .. i have my fur babies I don’t wanna have to give them up anyone that knows me they are me therapy my worlds :( PLEASE anything can help me please I’m asking from the bottom of my heart .....my job cutting me off over night didn’t allow me enough time to find a job which I’ve started but I just neeed this help for right now pleaSe