Help me get back home !
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Hello everyone, I’m sure you already know. It is with a heavy heart that I must admit that James and I will be breaking up. With this decision, I have no choice but to go back home to the US. This has come as a sudden surprise, I had planned on extending my visa for another 2.5 years.
But after losing my job last week, my marriage failing for almost a year now and countless other signs pointing me down this path. I calmly came to the conclusion that I just don’t belong here. I have to remind myself that I tried my best and some things just don’t work out.
It’s taken a lot of putting my pride to the side to admit these things, and further more to ask for financial help. I’ve relied quite a lot on James while being here. I’ve had jobs but they were so hard to get, and they were way below my experience and pay grade. I’m really left with nothing at all.
My visa expires on the 19th of June, because of the suddenness of this decision and the time limit, one way tickets are quite expensive. I’m only going to be taking two suitcases and a carryon with me home, Packing 3 years of my life in 3 bags. I’m going to have to apply for government assistance, I’m going to have to rely on the kindness of my friends and family, and these things really don’t come naturally to me. It’s only making me incredibly determined to work and succeed upon coming back.
I can’t even take Blanche home with me, the expenses for getting her her shots (which she really is too old to receive now and I’ve been guided against it), the passport (and waiting for it to be approved), getting a special flight where she fly’s with me… There’s no guarantee that she will survive the flight at 19, or that the stress of the move won’t drastically effect her health. So she will be staying here, with my wonderful roommate who thankfully loves her very much and will take excellent care of her. (I know quite a few of you were curious).
These are my expenses:
-One way flight from London to LAX
-Baggage costs, including inevitable extra weight (its about £15 per extra kilo)
-New suitecases (the ones I brought here now are broken)
-Train costs (travelling from Stafford to London, tube costs, uber, Gatwick express)
-General “Danger Money” for food, and just so I have at least a 100 bucks to my name upon coming home
If I can do a photoshoot with you in exchange for donations or a piece of art please message me about that. Hell I’ll even clean your apartment, I’m quite literally desperate to raise this money.
Thankfully through out these past few days, I’m reminded by how loved I am from my family and friends and I felt so blind before. Some of you have asked how you can help, and this would mean so much to me. I have a place to stay and already some job prospects, I hope to only go on with a positive and upward trajectory.
Thank you for reading and I look forward to seeing you all back home.
<3 Zoe
But after losing my job last week, my marriage failing for almost a year now and countless other signs pointing me down this path. I calmly came to the conclusion that I just don’t belong here. I have to remind myself that I tried my best and some things just don’t work out.
It’s taken a lot of putting my pride to the side to admit these things, and further more to ask for financial help. I’ve relied quite a lot on James while being here. I’ve had jobs but they were so hard to get, and they were way below my experience and pay grade. I’m really left with nothing at all.
My visa expires on the 19th of June, because of the suddenness of this decision and the time limit, one way tickets are quite expensive. I’m only going to be taking two suitcases and a carryon with me home, Packing 3 years of my life in 3 bags. I’m going to have to apply for government assistance, I’m going to have to rely on the kindness of my friends and family, and these things really don’t come naturally to me. It’s only making me incredibly determined to work and succeed upon coming back.
I can’t even take Blanche home with me, the expenses for getting her her shots (which she really is too old to receive now and I’ve been guided against it), the passport (and waiting for it to be approved), getting a special flight where she fly’s with me… There’s no guarantee that she will survive the flight at 19, or that the stress of the move won’t drastically effect her health. So she will be staying here, with my wonderful roommate who thankfully loves her very much and will take excellent care of her. (I know quite a few of you were curious).
These are my expenses:
-One way flight from London to LAX
-Baggage costs, including inevitable extra weight (its about £15 per extra kilo)
-New suitecases (the ones I brought here now are broken)
-Train costs (travelling from Stafford to London, tube costs, uber, Gatwick express)
-General “Danger Money” for food, and just so I have at least a 100 bucks to my name upon coming home
If I can do a photoshoot with you in exchange for donations or a piece of art please message me about that. Hell I’ll even clean your apartment, I’m quite literally desperate to raise this money.
Thankfully through out these past few days, I’m reminded by how loved I am from my family and friends and I felt so blind before. Some of you have asked how you can help, and this would mean so much to me. I have a place to stay and already some job prospects, I hope to only go on with a positive and upward trajectory.
Thank you for reading and I look forward to seeing you all back home.
<3 Zoe
Organizer and beneficiary
Zoe Demaruis Portia Flood
Organizer
Los Angeles, CA
Cassandra Amos
Beneficiary
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