KWD Drummer needs help*EDITED*
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RIP Charles Mathenys' -co founder of The Demonstration and first live version of killwhitneydead
Last month I made this page after agreeing to join a band called Fear The United. I deleted the crap I wrote when I found out Charles, one of my best friend's and one of the guys I started playing music with 12 years ago, was found dead. I talked to him the night before and this is part of one of the last messages he wrote me:
"I checked out the band you posted, it's pretty sick. I saw they knocked your dick in the dirt online though lol. I'm glad you're gonna play man. It's about time you put those beast legs back to work hah. I really wanna play again too bro. Nothing could compare to the high I got on stage with you and the the dudes. I know I've said it 100 times but I really have to chill out. God willing if it's not to late I just wanna find a GF, get a job, play music and ride my days out enjoying the simple, wholesome things in life. I'm not saying I'm gonna be straight edge but I'm tired of making Ozzy Osbourne look like Dr. Drew. We're 30 now, it's time, actually it's high time to shape up or ship out."
He was found dead a day later with nothing to identify him. I planned a memorial for him when I found out there wasn't going to be one in NC. I had help from his mom and a couple other friends. I went straight from the memorial last Sunday to jam with -FTU for the first time on a borrowed kit.
It had been 4 years since I'd even played the drums. After spending a good 6 months commuting to Winston-Salem to work everyday, sharing my 98 Camry with my girlfriend, grinding away to pay the bills and stay on the right path, I felt that it I had gotten it together enough to where I could devote an hour or two a week to music. I've always had something in my life that I used to "fill the phantom void." (So to speak) Skating, sports, music, an unhealthy relationship, back to music, bad habits (which people seem to make grossly exaggerated and unfair assumptions of), then exercise...but nothing since I moved here other than maybe work? I've listened to more music than ever, but I decided playing again would be both fun and therapeutic.
The mistake I made was getting stoked about playing again even though I hadn't owned a drummer or even touched a drum in 4 years. I made this page to let some people know I was gonna join this band and also asked for help with retired or cheap gear. The mistake I made was listing everything that I had been a part of musically in the past. Obviously I got slammed on websites like lambgoat for "begging for money for something that's not a necessity.". After losing some like Charles all those things became so small and insignificant. go in 2007 BC his addiction was making it harder for us to tour. For a long time now I've wanted to get my masters degree and study mental health. I still want to do that. Joking around with my buddy one day about living a good, simple life, and finding out he died doing something he had just told me he didn't wanna do shows you how powerful the disease can be.
MTV Interview
Lady GaGa V
killwhitneydead YouTube chanel
Drum can live-Nashville, TN
Last month I made this page after agreeing to join a band called Fear The United. I deleted the crap I wrote when I found out Charles, one of my best friend's and one of the guys I started playing music with 12 years ago, was found dead. I talked to him the night before and this is part of one of the last messages he wrote me:
"I checked out the band you posted, it's pretty sick. I saw they knocked your dick in the dirt online though lol. I'm glad you're gonna play man. It's about time you put those beast legs back to work hah. I really wanna play again too bro. Nothing could compare to the high I got on stage with you and the the dudes. I know I've said it 100 times but I really have to chill out. God willing if it's not to late I just wanna find a GF, get a job, play music and ride my days out enjoying the simple, wholesome things in life. I'm not saying I'm gonna be straight edge but I'm tired of making Ozzy Osbourne look like Dr. Drew. We're 30 now, it's time, actually it's high time to shape up or ship out."
He was found dead a day later with nothing to identify him. I planned a memorial for him when I found out there wasn't going to be one in NC. I had help from his mom and a couple other friends. I went straight from the memorial last Sunday to jam with -FTU for the first time on a borrowed kit.
It had been 4 years since I'd even played the drums. After spending a good 6 months commuting to Winston-Salem to work everyday, sharing my 98 Camry with my girlfriend, grinding away to pay the bills and stay on the right path, I felt that it I had gotten it together enough to where I could devote an hour or two a week to music. I've always had something in my life that I used to "fill the phantom void." (So to speak) Skating, sports, music, an unhealthy relationship, back to music, bad habits (which people seem to make grossly exaggerated and unfair assumptions of), then exercise...but nothing since I moved here other than maybe work? I've listened to more music than ever, but I decided playing again would be both fun and therapeutic.
The mistake I made was getting stoked about playing again even though I hadn't owned a drummer or even touched a drum in 4 years. I made this page to let some people know I was gonna join this band and also asked for help with retired or cheap gear. The mistake I made was listing everything that I had been a part of musically in the past. Obviously I got slammed on websites like lambgoat for "begging for money for something that's not a necessity.". After losing some like Charles all those things became so small and insignificant. go in 2007 BC his addiction was making it harder for us to tour. For a long time now I've wanted to get my masters degree and study mental health. I still want to do that. Joking around with my buddy one day about living a good, simple life, and finding out he died doing something he had just told me he didn't wanna do shows you how powerful the disease can be.
MTV Interview
Lady GaGa V
killwhitneydead YouTube chanel
Drum can live-Nashville, TN
Organizer
Peter Grey Jackson
Organizer
Greensboro, NC
