Help Shab Stay on the Road of Recovery
Donation protected
Hi. My name is Shab and I just turned 30 years old. I am a recovering addict with an official sobriety and clean date of 9.19.19. I have been recovering from drugs for the past few years and I was clean and sober for two years. At that time, I had a really good program, I was attending meetings regularly, I was surrounded by friends in recovery and life seemed to be on track. I had made a new start for myself. I had regained the trust of my family and friends and I finally started feeling like my life was gaining momentum; however, roughly one year ago, I started getting sidetracked. What happens to a lot of recovering addicts finally happened to me. Unfortunately, I started drifting from my program and recovery friends to an environment that was unhealthy for me. It started happening gradually until finally I had a relapse. I couldn’t pull myself out of some very negative and dark circumstances and since I was overwhelmed by fear, shame and guilt, I isolated myself entirely.
Looking back now, I am discovering more each day as to why my relapse occurred in the first place. A late bloomer in many areas of life, I was learning to be responsible and I was working challenging hours as a Behavioral and Developmental Therapist working with children with Autism. Before I knew it, I realized that I was doing a disservice to the kids as well as myself by working a job that required a lot out of me and put a lot of stress on my mental and physical well-being. I am aware now that a full-time job is great for most people; however, because of the disease of addiction that I battle on a daily basis, I am now clear on the fact that a job that is less demanding would be more appropriate for my recovery and emotional health. By committing to flexible part-time hours and having an emergency fund, I will be able to pay my bills, pay rent on time, all while having extra funds for emergencies that we know come up in day to day life, not to mention I'm in dier need of a vehicle. This emergency fund will allow me the breathing room necessary to keep my recovery as my main priority.
This is where I’m putting my feelings of embarrassment and humility aside and asking for your help. I'm humbly asking for individual or group donations. My goal is to have $5,000 dollars by October 5th, 2019 to be able to keep the roof over my head and pay outstanding bills. Please keep in mind that today, I am just a few days sober and clean. I am focusing on clearing my mind, regenerating my energy in a healthy way, making amends where necessary, and focusing on staying abstinent. Along with the many lessons I have learned through this relapse, I am extremely grateful to even be alive and to be well. I am learning to be more self-sufficient, more honest with myself and with others, more healthy and gentle with my mind, body and soul. The greatest lesson I'm learning is how to better love myself as well as give love to those that I am blessed to come across on a daily basis.
Hopefully, with your donations and God’s blessings, I will remain drug-free and get to a better place of health, stability and grace.
Thank you.
Looking back now, I am discovering more each day as to why my relapse occurred in the first place. A late bloomer in many areas of life, I was learning to be responsible and I was working challenging hours as a Behavioral and Developmental Therapist working with children with Autism. Before I knew it, I realized that I was doing a disservice to the kids as well as myself by working a job that required a lot out of me and put a lot of stress on my mental and physical well-being. I am aware now that a full-time job is great for most people; however, because of the disease of addiction that I battle on a daily basis, I am now clear on the fact that a job that is less demanding would be more appropriate for my recovery and emotional health. By committing to flexible part-time hours and having an emergency fund, I will be able to pay my bills, pay rent on time, all while having extra funds for emergencies that we know come up in day to day life, not to mention I'm in dier need of a vehicle. This emergency fund will allow me the breathing room necessary to keep my recovery as my main priority.
This is where I’m putting my feelings of embarrassment and humility aside and asking for your help. I'm humbly asking for individual or group donations. My goal is to have $5,000 dollars by October 5th, 2019 to be able to keep the roof over my head and pay outstanding bills. Please keep in mind that today, I am just a few days sober and clean. I am focusing on clearing my mind, regenerating my energy in a healthy way, making amends where necessary, and focusing on staying abstinent. Along with the many lessons I have learned through this relapse, I am extremely grateful to even be alive and to be well. I am learning to be more self-sufficient, more honest with myself and with others, more healthy and gentle with my mind, body and soul. The greatest lesson I'm learning is how to better love myself as well as give love to those that I am blessed to come across on a daily basis.
Hopefully, with your donations and God’s blessings, I will remain drug-free and get to a better place of health, stability and grace.
Thank you.
Organizer
Shabnam Valipour
Organizer
Stevenson Ranch, CA
