Help kitten Eeva

*Hi my name is Eeva. Last month I lost my best friend and littermate Teddy. We have been together ever since we were little.


He was the always the goofy one who would entertain me and my mom.  I'm a bit more shy but with an adventurous side.  We loved playing together and kept our mom awake at night with our wrestling and chasing. 



Lately I've been sad and depressed. I call for Teddy and I'm not sure where he has gone. Everything seems different. 

I miss cuddling with him while mom is at work. I miss eating with him and watching birds out the window together. He made everything better. 

I hope he knows how much I love him and how much my world has changed without him.*



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Hi there, my name is Emily and I am Teddy and Eeva's human mom. 

I am completely devastated as I write this. My world, too, has changed since Teddy unexpectedly and quickly passed.

His death was traumatic and the color seems to have faded around me.

I've had Teddy and Eeva since they arrived at my door in a cardboard box at 5 weeks old. 

Teddy and Eeva are from the same litter and Teddy had a hard time when I first got him. He would cry and search for his mom.

Over the last 6 years they have been my constant companions. We moved across country together when they were just one year olds.

They were/are the joy and light in my life.

We were a trio - a family together. No matter what we had each other. 

Last month, June 2018, Teddy started not feeling well over a weekend. I took him into the vet on a Monday thinking it might be a stomach bug as he had no appetite whatsoever. He had no other symptoms.  I thought things would be okay.

To my great shock - after his blood work results came in - the vet said Teddy most likely had lymphoma. He had irregular lymphocytes and a pathologist said he had stage v lymphoma.

He was jaundiced and his liver was enlarged although his radiographs showed no visible tumors.

I took him home and began syringe feeding him. I prayed and begged for God to save his life. I looked into holistic treatments. I took him into the vet for fluids and follow up check ups. His prognosis was always poor. 

Since I had to administer his medicine and force feed him at home - Eeva watched as Teddy struggled and cried. It was traumatizing for us all. 

After a week long battle of trying to keep Teddy alive - he passed away on June 18th, 2018.

I tried so hard to keep him alive. I syringe fed him four times a day because he was not eating on his own. The vet started him on a steroid and antibiotic. I got him supplements and herbal remedies to help his body fight.  Anything I could do to save my baby boy.

I slept on the floor with him and Eeva every night. We kept him company and let him do whatever activities he felt up to do. 

After a bad reaction to the steroid - Teddy's breathing became labored and rapid. He layed on the floor in the living room and bathroom and cried out. The steroid made him stay awake and he didn't get rest.

It broke my heart to hear him in this pain. I could do nothing but end his suffering by helping him pass on.

After taking him to an emergency vet and hearing that he had fluid in his lungs and that he was rapidly declining - I made the choice that nobody should ever have to make. I let Teddy go.

I'd like to say it was peaceful and easy as they say this type of death can be but unfortunately it was not in his case. He was terrified and tried to get away. The vet took him in another room to sedate him and when she came back she told she had to euthanize him because he wouldn't calm down. 

That broke me. I fell to the ground and sobbed. My poor little boy. My sweet gentle baby had died scared and restrained. I will never forgive myself for that. The guilt is intense and it's hard to find peace. 

He had such a light hearted presence. He was my gentle giant. He was a big boned ginger boy with a goofy charismatic personality. 

As you can imagine Eeva and I are left behind and wondering what and how this happened.  He was only 6 years old.

It was so fast that I can barely wrap my mind around it.

Eeva still searches for him. A month later and she still howls their special cry in all his hiding spots. She doesn't know where he is. I try my best to comfort her and play with her and distract her but I am no substitute for her brother.

I am making this gofundme to help me help Eeva. After spending thousands of dollars on trying to keep Teddy alive I no longer have any resources to help brighten the world for her. 

I know she needs some new good change and positivity. 

I'd like to get her a cat tree by the window and a pet stroller for walks. She's extremely adventurous and I know she is so bored and depressed lately.

Donations will go toward getting Eeva a physical exam and blood work at the vet. As well as some awesome toys and lifestyle changes to help heal her and my heart. 

We are a duo now and I'm so glad that I still have my little girl.

Thank you for reading our story.

Blessings and love to you.