Help Elijah Start Transitioning.
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Howdy folks
So for about a year now I have been publicly out as a transman which is really exciting for me because this has been the first year in my life where I was confident in myself for real. I always used to beat myself up ( due to, in part, an abusive relationship ) for not feeling "girly" enough and I never felt my body looked right but I always thought it was due to my weight ( again, in part, due to that same abusive relationship.) I've realized this past year while my weight is something I am still self-conscious about but I am so much more confident in myself now that I have realized who I am, at least a little bit.
SO onto why I am making this. I cannot afford health insurance, which means that everything I need to do costs exponentially more than it would for someone who did have health insurance. I cannot afford $200 every time I need to get a hormone injection, it is just not realistic for my life right now as I sometimes can barely afford my bills.
I am asking for help in just getting STARTED on hormone therapy. I have already been to a therapist multiple times before my health insurance was cancelled. I have been formally diagnosed, I was offered a letter of recomendation. That's the paper trail of doctors saying I NEED to start this for my own mental health. From my personal side, I do need to start this. One of my biggest sources of dysphoria is my voice and unfortunately my job requires quite a bit of talking. I havbe to listen to myself speak and all I can think about it is how much I hate it, it doesn't sound like me, it doesn't sound like what I sound like in my head. And, frankly, its getting to me. There are things that upset me about my body that, at the end of the day, I would be able to live with but there are things about it that I cannot live with and my voice just seems to be one of them.
I'm starting this so I can begin a journey of really pushing myself into where I want to be. It's a long road and I'm only on the first few miles of it and I just need a little help.
Thank you so much for reading all of this. I understand there are people out there who have it so much worse than me, but if you can even see it in you to share this on FB or Tumblr or Twitter, wherever that would even be a huge help.
Again, Thank you.
And to you reading this, I hope you have a wonderful day.
So for about a year now I have been publicly out as a transman which is really exciting for me because this has been the first year in my life where I was confident in myself for real. I always used to beat myself up ( due to, in part, an abusive relationship ) for not feeling "girly" enough and I never felt my body looked right but I always thought it was due to my weight ( again, in part, due to that same abusive relationship.) I've realized this past year while my weight is something I am still self-conscious about but I am so much more confident in myself now that I have realized who I am, at least a little bit.
SO onto why I am making this. I cannot afford health insurance, which means that everything I need to do costs exponentially more than it would for someone who did have health insurance. I cannot afford $200 every time I need to get a hormone injection, it is just not realistic for my life right now as I sometimes can barely afford my bills.
I am asking for help in just getting STARTED on hormone therapy. I have already been to a therapist multiple times before my health insurance was cancelled. I have been formally diagnosed, I was offered a letter of recomendation. That's the paper trail of doctors saying I NEED to start this for my own mental health. From my personal side, I do need to start this. One of my biggest sources of dysphoria is my voice and unfortunately my job requires quite a bit of talking. I havbe to listen to myself speak and all I can think about it is how much I hate it, it doesn't sound like me, it doesn't sound like what I sound like in my head. And, frankly, its getting to me. There are things that upset me about my body that, at the end of the day, I would be able to live with but there are things about it that I cannot live with and my voice just seems to be one of them.
I'm starting this so I can begin a journey of really pushing myself into where I want to be. It's a long road and I'm only on the first few miles of it and I just need a little help.
Thank you so much for reading all of this. I understand there are people out there who have it so much worse than me, but if you can even see it in you to share this on FB or Tumblr or Twitter, wherever that would even be a huge help.
Again, Thank you.
And to you reading this, I hope you have a wonderful day.
Organiser
Olivar James
Organiser
Brandon, FL
