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Healing Journey of a Dominatrix

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My name is Amy Draa, otherwise known as Mistress Adrienne, international fetish artist and dominatrix. I have been fighting aggressive ovarian cancer since 2016 and can no longer support this battle on my own.

I grew up in small-town Ohio, with an ambition to express myself through fashion, photography, performance, and writing. Fetish and BDSM have been a curiosity since childhood, and I discovered the business in my twenties, after moving to New York. Being a professional dominatrix has been more than a job to me. It is a lifestyle, an intellectual stimulus, and, most important, an authentic and unique way for me to live my dreams of artistic expression. I put most of my earnings into the art form and am recognized for my distinctive fashion, photography, and interviews. I did not expect to be terminally ill at this point of my life and career.

I have always been disciplined and interested in health. I've spent my life experimenting with diet, exercise, and spiritual growth. I’ve been juicing daily and practicing yoga for over fifteen years. I was never sick, not even with colds. Ovarian cancer is known as “the silent killer,” as the symptoms often don’t appear until the cancer has advanced and spread.

My illness made itself known in August 2016, when I experienced a fever that lasted two weeks, with an average temperature of 102˚Farenheit/39˚Celsius. I was traveling at the time and believed the sickness was the result of too many planes and a poor diet. Finally, I went to an emergency room, and had a CAT scan of my abdomen, which was bloated. I was told that I had large cysts on my ovaries but was assured that ovarian cancer was extremely rare for a woman in her thirties. I returned to New York and lived in denial for a few more months, as it took time to find a surgeon and set a date for the surgery.

On November 22, 2016, I underwent major surgery, and woke to hear the awful news not only that I no longer had my reproductive organs but also that I had stage III rare ovarian cancer (MMMT ovarian), which had spread to the colon, liver, and small intestine and that those tumors remained in my body.

I wanted to reject chemotherapy, which is completley against my beliefs as a holistic health practitioner, but I could not deny the aggressive cancer that remained inside of me. My first day of chemo was the worst day of my life. But thankfully the treatments, in combination with my holistic practices, killed all visible cancer. In March 2017, I was declared cancer-free and ended chemotherapy. I continued alternative treatments and maintained a healthy diet. I believed I could have my old life back.

Sadly, the cancer has already returned (October 2017). It is visible on my liver, the lining of my stomach, and a lymph node. I began a new regime of chemotherapy on November 6th.

During this next battle in healing, I must dedicate myself solely to my health and life goals. I can no longer maintain my business, which has been struggling since the initial fever in 2016. This campaign is to fund my life expenses and well being, which I can no longer support on my own.

I will keep this account updated on where the funds are going - most urgently to NYC rent, bills, holistic treatments, and travel. Travel is a necessity, as it allows me to visit my loved ones and restores my faith in and passion for life. All holistic treatments are out of pocket and are essential for managing pain, anxiety, and cell repair.

Although I have faith in my healing, I can not deny the prognosis, and must spend my time completing my life mission. Of utmost importance are time with family and friends, spiritual searching, and artistic merit. When I focus on these goals, I am at peace with my situation.

I hope that telling my story will be of use to others and I feel it is my duty. When I was searching for women like me who were going through the traumas of cancer, I was disappointed that I did not find many I related to. I have ambitions to speak more publicly about my life, as a source of healing for others. I'm considering a YouTube channel and more writing in the future. I hope not only to be an aid for women with cancer but also for people wanting to discuss sexual issues, mental health, and other topics.

I will maintain my social media and fetish modeling as it is very important for me to feel connected to my supporters, and to feel beautiful in spite of the disease and the challenging treatments that accompany it. I'd like to show women that we don't have to give up our glamour or sexuality with cancer. Fetish is still a passion of mine and always will be.

Funds are needed urgently. Every donation, large or small, helps. If you cannot donate, please share this page. I appreciate every bit of support and hope you will follow my journey.

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Hello supporters, I've been waiting to see my doctors before adding a new update and I finally spoke with them in person yesterday, first time this year. I'm scheduled to have a PET scan at the end of May, which will image most of my body, and give us more information on the auxiliary lymph node, which remains a mystery as to why it is swollen. If the ovarian cancer has diminished (which I'm working hard for that result), they want to put me on a PARP inhibitor to prolong the time between recurrence. The doctor told me straight-up that my insurance won't cover it so it will be a process to get the drug approved, but she thinks I have a good case.
I have begun fasting 1 day a week (3 days per week on chemo weeks) and I believe this will help starve the remaining cancer cells. At any rate, the fasting is helping with nausea and digestion. My chemo sessions have been on schedule and the doctors are giving me the shots to build the blood. My next session is May 15th, which I hope will be my last!
Thank you, always, for the donations. Honestly, I am grateful every day. If I were not able to pay my rent and bills, I'd be in a much worse situation right now. People always remark on my good attitude and I tell them that I am fortunate.

For those wondering about my sister, she had a successful surgery (her third) earlier this month. Today I join my mother for our first mother/daughter trip. I am excited. My family is strong.

I hope all of my supporters are well and that you enjoy each day. Things can always be better, but they can always be worse. It's important to appreciate the good, especially in difficult times. Take care of yourselves and know that you mean a lot to me. Thank you
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Hello supporters. My catscan was on Tuesday (2 weeks behind schedule due to low blood counts and the doctor's screw-up in February). The scan showed that the tumors are shrinking (most of them shrunk in half) but there is still evidence of disease, and doctors recommend three more rounds of chemo before the next scan. I was rather devastated. I know it's good that the disease is responding to treatment but I was anticipating a clear scan and an end to chemo. I never wanted to eek out the rest of my life on chemotherapy. I don't support this treatment but I have little choice.

I demanded a meeting with the 'head cheese' doctor to discuss everything, on the 26th of this month.

I have begun work on the book I spoke about in previous updates and that gives me drive. Thank you for your support.
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Hello supporters. I was unable to receive chemotherapy yesterday due to low blood counts (which did not surprise me).
I am rescheduled for February 13th.
My cat scan will be scheduled for the week of February 26th.
I must admit, I'm feeling frustrated this month. The health of my sister is not good. She has a recurrence of brain cancer, which she's been battling since 2010. I've been tested for genetic cancer and the result was negative. We are unsure why my sister and I got dealt these cards. It's hard to see my family suffer. My mom will come to NYC next week to accompany me to chemo and aid me in the week of recovery. I will go to Ohio this month and be with my family, in between my doctor visits.
As many of you know, I thrive on productivity and creative output. It has been difficult without my business and clients. Photoshoots, travel, and social media are not enough. I plan to focus my time and energy on a larger project, potentially a book. I aim to organize ALL of my photos, which are admittedly a storage mess. I would love to create a book that is heavy in both imagery and writing. I have made a goal of hours I will 'work' per week on this project.
I thank you all for the support. Without you, I'm not sure where I'd be right now. I thank you for helping me be where I'm at this moment, which is present and thankful. Through it all, I'm still able to smile and find reason to fight.
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Hello supporters. I was livid with doctors today. They forgot to schedule my chemo and my ‘clinic’ to discuss cat scan. I told them I was receiving poor care. They rescheduled the chemo for tomorrow. I’m frustrated. More updates tomorrow....
Heading home to focus on better aspects of life.
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