Help Me Leave My Abusive Mother

Hello, I’m an autistic and mentally ill lesbian that needs to get out of my abusive household.

For the past nine months, it’s become more and more clear that my home situation, more specifically my mother, is quite abusive and toxic. My brother has also treated me badly throughout the years as well. Last year, however, my mom’s boyfriend and fiance at the time, Dave, unexpectedly passed away in July, leaving me with no real protection or buffer from my mom’s feelings about me. She bullies me about my appearance and eating habits, doesn’t respect my eating disorder (BED), and guilts me for basically living in her home whilst also infantilizing me and saying that I can’t move out and implying that I can’t live without her. I even have some doubts that she doesn’t actually support my sexuality as a lesbian. These reasons and some other things often lead me to believe that she doesn’t really love me, that she wants to control me forever, that my brother and her are conspiring against me to make me live and be dependent on them forever. It is clear to both my friends and myself alike that I need to get out of this horrible home situation as soon as possible, which is where, hopefully, you can help me. I’m hoping to get money to cover the costs of: rent for a month in advance, moving, food, and some cheap furniture and apartment fixtures (such as cooking stuff, towels, etc.).