We need a place to live

I’d like to share my update with anyone interested. This past January, I created a GoFundMe account in hopes of raising enough money to purchase a home, thinking that would solve at least one of our problems. This year has been a journey of trying to find a place to live, and it continues. While I'm grateful we have a roof over our heads, there's still work to be done. Whether we are ever able to purchase or have to continue renting, the bigger question is, where do we go? Where do we want to live and what can we afford; do we part company or do we consolidate resources and how do we make it work?

Meanwhile, I needed to find some answers to more important questions, like who am I and how did I get to where I am? What shall I do to improve the situation? How can I know what I want in life, and what will make me happy?

Over the past few months, I have been working on letting go of my victim consciousness and forgiving myself and others, especially those for whom I have held resentment, anger, and disappointment because of what I perceived as their mistreatment of me and whose actions or failure to act have affected me negatively, again, my perception of the situation.

I know that I am responsible for my own situation, regardless of what others may have contributed. I made decisions that resulted in the situation I find myself dealing with, and I can make decisions to address and change my situation, which is what I’m working to accomplish.

I want a better life. I have allowed fear to cloud my vision, and I see myself as stuck in an unacceptable situation. It’s very difficult to overcome feelings of fear and doubt when facing difficult challenges, and this past year I've been feeling challenged at every turn. I’m working on turning my perception around so that I can accept and transform myself and my life because feeling like a victim and hating my situation does nothing to make things better; those feelings just keep me stuck.

So, I’m thankful for all I do have, and I’m grateful for the blessings I experience every day, small and large. I do love life; I just wanted to enjoy prosperity, financial security, abundance and the things that make up the good life. And I do love life…it’s just that this life, my life, is not what I hoped for or expected…I have been feeling less-than appreciative, and maybe that’s why I have felt so defeated. But I am hoping my efforts at a new attitude will turn things around for me.

I continue to work on forgiveness, for others and myself. It’s challenging, and I experience setbacks, but I continue to hope for and work on believing I can overcome all the obstacles that have held me back from my happiness since it’s just a matter of attitude adjustment.

Ultimately, it doesn’t matter how rich or poor I am, the fact that I am here and now is what counts, and I want to make the best of it.

Thank you for your support, and interest. If you would like to visit my GoFundMe account, here is the link: https://gofund.me/a4c36f64Hi,

This was how I began my GoFundMe request:

I'm Shemirah Brachah; I'm 74 years old, and for the past year, I, along with my grandson, his wife, their now-2-year-old daughter, and two cats (Bob Asia and Misty) have been living like nomads, invited to stay and then kicked out of our family residence due to inter-personality clashes with extended-family members' decided they wanted us out.

In May of 2022, we moved from one family's residence at the urging and invitation of another; however within four months, it was made clear we were no longer welcome and proceeded to vacate; we were then offered a stay at a vacant home being prepared as office space by another family member, but only for two months.

In October, with still no rental prospects and with nowhere else to go, we made the difficult decision to return to Upstate New York, where we had other extended family.

When we arrived at our Johnstown rental, it was clear we needed to keep looking, because it was less-than-satisfactory, as is much of what is available for rent. Anything worth consideration seems to be for sale, not for rent.

So the only reasonable solution is to purchase a house. But I cannot qualify for a home loan. I either need a co-signer or the generosity of friends and strangers.

Thank you for your consideration,

Shemirah Brachah