Trying Times

Im not even sure how to start this without feeling like a failure, I have always been self sufficient, never asking for help even in the times when I needed it the most, For those of you who know me you know the past five years of my life were spent working in the field of substance abuse dedicating 110% of myself souly to the cause of helping others turn their lives around. I gave so much of myself that when I walked in the door of my own home I had nothing left to give. In early 2015 I started to fall apart mentally and emmotinally, my relationship with my fiancee and childen began to slowly deteriorate to the point where we spoke to each other only out of neccessity. In June of 2015 I had had enough of  the politics of treatment and grew tired of being treated like an expendable employee instead of the reliable never say quit servant I truly was, Jealousy on behalf of other employees spawned rumors that forced my hand to walk off the job rather than continue to allow my rights as an employee be violated over and over again. 

At this time my small at home business Dark Side Reelz was still bringing in enough money combined with my Fiancees income to continue to provide for our 4 children, Little did we know that that would all come to an end very soon. Unemployment dragged their feet for close to 8 weeks before approving my claim and if that wasnt bad enough while waiting for my claim to be approved my fiancee left her job for a better paying job which turned out to be a complete hoax that she did not see a paycheck from for some 9 weeks. Bills began to build up, certain bills began to take a back seat in order to continue to pay for nessecities like food, diapers and gas in our vehicles. 

I continued to run Dark Side Reelz from home bringing in what money I could and in some cases asking faithful customers to pay me in advance in exchange for servicing their gear over the winter in order to keep things like the gas and lights on. As if things couldnt get any worse a routine trip to my primary care physician resulted in being sent for a second MRI of my liver after a recent panel of blood work reported that my liver enzymes were once again elevated. For the past 20 years Ive had Hepatitis C for the most part under control but after 2 very painful failed attempts to rid myself of the disease I was not willing to go through a 3rd new experimental drug, being faced with either going through the treatment or taking the chance I could soon develop chirosis of the liver I decided to meet with my specialist to discuss the new treatment only to be told that my insurance company was  not willing to pay the almost 1,000$ a day the treatment would cost. ( In all honesty most of my family and friends have no idea that I am in this bad of a place physically)

We continue to push forward every day keeping the kids fed and the vehicles gassed but as far as everythig else goes we are in serious danger of losing it all. My at home business does well providing food and diapers but does not begin to scratch the surface of the type of bills we have, 1.000$ rent payment, 389$ National Grid Monthly Budget Payment ( because we have electric baseboard, 450$ car payment, 2 vehicle insurance payments , etc.

I have been on numerous job interviews that have all turned me down because of my past criminal history. Im sure eventually I will land something that will help pay the bills but by then It will be too late. In less than 4 weeks I will lose my vehicle if I cannot come up with another 900$.  More than likely both of our car insurances will be cancelled in the next 2 weeks for lack of payment as well. My fiancee managed to land a decent job but she wont see a pay check for another 2 weeks and at this point the creditors do not want to hear anymore empty promises.

At this point it isnt even about us its about the kids (16month, 6 yrs old and 4 years old), how do you tell them sorry Mommy and Daddy cant take you there or buy you that because we cant afford it. Im sure this will stir some controversy amongst some family members but we need to do what ever we need to  doto survive. In our day we have set up enough of these to help other people and donated to enough campaigns that others have set up that we feel it is only right that we speak the truth and reach out for some help from others to try to salvage what little we have left while we continue to try negiotiating with our creditors, From my self and the rest of the members who live under our roof we would like to say that we would be extremely grateful for any donation you may be able to make. We assure you that that money will be used to rectify our financial dilemas, afterwhich we will continue to pay it forward    

*Dark Side Reekz customers have nothing to fear, do not allow this to steer you away from sending your gear in for service right now it is the work you guys send that help us stay afloat during these extremey difficult times, thank you every one                                                                                                                 -