I just want to give him the farewell service he deserves. So many people were huge fans of JJ and I absolutely Love hearing how he influenced so many in so many ways. I can’t believe how kind everyone is being. I appreciate every word and gesture and the cash donations are such a blessing to aid in the service and allows myself and Charlie to go through all these feels without stressing too much about bills. JJ would be so thankful. Love you all.

Living life is painful and a struggle when all is seemingly well so when I am tasked with standing by my husbands side while cancer ravages his body and our hopes and dreams of a life together, life is seemingly impossible. I am devastated and angry and heartbroken and confused and terrified, absolutely terrified. This has all come so quick and we bark get by as is which is fine we don’t want for much but each other. When I’m not able to even doordash to make the ends meet because I can barely leave his side, that’s when the walls start closing in around me. We have a beautiful smart little boy in kindergarten, who is so worried about his daddy I don’t want him worried about adult bills. I still haven’t come up with a word or words to describe what I’m feeling but it is a feeling of being so alone and so helpless. My other half is a special man, respectful and so caring… he does not deserve to be going through this. Like I said it had all happened so fast I’m working on getting into programs etc. to help financially but until then right here and now I have some financial obligations I need some human kindness to resolve. One day I will be in a better spot and can pay it forward. Thank you thank you! Samantha JJ & Charlie ❤️