I met my husband 7 years ago, and we would have been married for 6 years this September. He passed away at age 33. I still have yet to accept and process that he's gone. But I'm not the only one who lost him. My babies lost the best fur daddy they could ever ask for. We all loved him so much, and for me to be there for him in his final days, I had to take off a lot of work that wasn't paid just so I could be with him. I don't regret it for a second because I wanted to be there for him every second that I could. The only problem was we lost him so soon.

My husband's name is Ricky, and he was my best friend, not just my husband. I could be myself around him and not feel judged or feel unimportant. We had our ups and downs, but when it came down to it, we loved each other more than anything, and we were lucky enough to be blessed to start from ground zero and build our life and little family together. We don't have kids, but our dogs were our kids, and I know this is confusing them to not see daddy anymore out of the blue, and it hurts so much to not have him here.

I'm reaching out to see what can be done to help me stay ahead on bills. I've lost about one month's worth of work between 2 paychecks, so I'm getting behind on rent and car payments. I'm not needing much like a lot of people who come to this site, but just enough to get me back on track while I get back to normal work hours.