November of 2019 was suddenly hospitalized for a micro tear in my colon. This gave me sepsis and had to spend the whole month there in the hospital. I was released Christmas Eve. Even though they thought it was fixed and so did I. I relapsed on the 20th of January puttting me back in the hospital again for another few weeks. Not to mention the recovery time.  Each time I’ve lost work and depleted my savings.  I was scheduled to have procedure to see what needed to be done after two times.  I couldn’t keep gettting sepsis every month. It was killing me. The end of March was the first time I was able to be seen.  All surgery appointments got canceled due to the COVID 19 shutdown. So back to waiting. They got me back in finally on June 1st for a colonoscopy to check the damage from Diverticulitis. According to the scans they said there was over of foot of damage where these pockets swell and explode. My tears now two seeemed to be healing fine.  This ended up not being the case and 6 weeks later I ended up going back with a new tear and more sepsis except they said this time I need a portion of colon removed it was just too far gone. I couldn’t lose more time from work so I scheduled it. When I got out of the hospital and recovered again.  I’m already in the hole because of this. Unemployment won’t pay me not even partial. They said 8-12 hours a week was too much. Well I’m not getting any hours because of surgery. Not a fun thing. My wonderful girlfriend has helped the last few months but she can’t keep trying to pay for my life she has her own isssues.  No we do not live together and she does it to help me but she works minimally because of the shutdowns in her office only sometimes.  I’m stuck and scared I never know when to ask for help and my pride never lets me. My recovery is just over a month. I’ve been out of the hospital for about a week. I have 42 staples in my stomach not to mention souchers.  I’m constantly draining fluids and now on oxygen. I have no income, my friend I stay with I paid my rent on November but have no money left to pay soon enough for December. My recovery is going to be long so that rules out work for me anytime soon.  I am begging for help to get me thru and maybe help me with the ability to recover without all the stress until I can work again.  My rent, insurance and bills are all come due not to mention my constant pills I’m taking right now. I went in for a bowel resection and it ended up that place a takedown of my small intestine and removed my appendix because the small intestine grew a fistula that was dumping toxins causing more and more issues . While they were there they also found a hernia I didn’t know about.  One thing grew into 4 things. I’m desperate and out of options. I would appreciate the help to ease my burden I wish I could write better. All I can tell you is the truth and a start to help me get things back on track.   I’m getting no hours because of recovery and setbacks. COVID-19 shutdown is looming again. Unemployment denied me for partial and closed my case. I need help This is very hard to ask for help and feel embarrassed to do so Thank you.   ~Dom