Walk With Me

This year has been the most ridiculous by far for the best of us. Lock down had some of us changing up our lives & using the time wisely to become people we were not before, whereas others struggled with being alone, furloughed, and unable to deal with the anxiety of what was around the corner.

After contracting the virus very early into the second wave it has given me time to think about past and current events. I have sat and thought about my mental state, where I want to go from here, and how grateful I am to have not been hospitalised. Although passing the infection onto Josie (my flat mate) I have been lucky enough to spend the past 10 days laughing, crying, screaming and getting angry over absolutely everything and nothing atall with somebody else.

I abused my loss of taste & smell by doing what I undoubtedly always have done on a night in the flat, drinking towards my night cap. October is a month where most go sober for charity, and more than most do it for fun or to test themselves.

This October I have chosen to take part and raise money for a charity of my choice, BEAT Eating Disorder. Having an eating disorder comes hand in hand with other habits, binges and coping mechanisms. Most of us will be able to admit that we deal with trauma, sadness or anger through binge drinking. It’s easier to grab alcohol to harm yourself invisibly than to have everyone know you are suffering visibly.

For October I will be swapping the units that I drink of alcohol per week, for Miles that I am going to walk instead.

It’s going to be a month of coping with my struggles head first, a month of letting my liver have time to feel the way it should have years ago, and a month of remembering that alcohol isn’t the answer to each emotion that I feel.

So for October I hope to walk 100 miles with the help from my best pal Ella.