Eviction, Rent Arrears, Mental Health

UPDATE 8 th February.

Things are very bleak.

I'm being evicted by baliffs on Monday 12th February.

Have been told that there is a good chance I may be street homeless and advised to find a shelter. I onyl qualify for 2 of 3 Emergency Housing Criteria.

Have tried to contact family but they cannot help or want reconciliation. I have no-one to help me move. I have nowhere to go.

I'm facing oblivion. Any money donated will help pay my £4000 rent arrears and storage costs so can avoid having my stuff taken by landlord.

Peace and Love.

UPDATE 30th Nov.

My anxiety and stress off the charts. Trying to soak up any drip of energy from my emaciated soul. My anxiety meds are out of stock.

Will try to stream tomorrow December 1st.

Have rung the council and sent a copy of my eviction notice. Waiting for a call back and an appointment next week.

Have emailed Landlord's solicitor informing them of inability to afford to store my stuff.

Trying to manifest strength to stream. NHS Anxiety meds prescription still not yet filled.

PEACE AND LOVE.

UPDATE 29th Nov.

Got the eviction notice this afternoon, getting evicted on 8th December.

Will try to stream and say goodbye before.

PEACE, LOVE, HOPE & HEALING

Trying again. 28th Nov 2023

Original GoFundMe created and ended in March last year raising £1455. Thank you <3. Sadly I closed it after not being able to avoid eviction proceedings and having another Mental Health crisis at how badly set-up and confusingly explained it was.

Around 5 years ago had a total mental breakdown. Have become estranged from reality, family and friends. The last 2 years I have become a total recluse, have alienated all friends and family. Have not spent any time with humans. I spend all day, every day, alone with demons of pity and regret.

Have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD, adding to previous diagnosis of Depression and Aniexty. Also have divertucltus.

Currently I am on PIP (Disability) and Full Universal Credit (Limited Capacity to Work) due to my Mental Health. (Complex PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Diverculutus. I get £1500 a month currently, such is the severity and impact of my Mental Health Disability.

It has been very hard for me to have been labelled as disabled.

I have no joy for life, no drive, no support network than I can access without falling back into more destructive routines, hurting those who try to help.

Due to these conditions, and how it took over 3 years to prove and get payments, all whilst I was not earning any money, I have been evicted from my home under Section 21 as of September 1st. UPDATE - I have been served my eviction notice and need to be out on Friday 8th December.

I am unable to find anywhere else in Brighton due to the cost of rent, the amount of stuff I have (Over 35 60L boxes and furniture), and the fact I am in Rent Arrears. I have alienated all friends and family due to my behaviour cycles.

I have deleted all my social media, including my Twitter account with 18,000 followers. Have removed all phone contacts. I am unable to currently stop the destructive cycles my demons are so in control of.

Have applied to Brighton Council for homelessness in August, but as I'm not working locally and don't have a child, they cannot re-home me in Brighton. I will be put in a hotel room in Hastings, miles away and a town I have never been to. It will just be a room, I cannot take any stuff, let alone the garage FULL of stuff. Everything I own.

The eviction was with the court since September 1st. I had no legal representation, and can't get free legal aid due to all services being so in-demand.

I've spoken to the council, NHS, Brighton Housing Services and more. No-one can help. Have been told to wait until I get my 2 week eviction notice, then I can be put in a hotel in Hastings.

UPDATE - Have requested an appointment now I have the eviction letter. Waiting to hear back.

They cannot store any of my stuff. I would have sold things I own normally, but my whole house is packed and in my garage. My Mental Health conditions also prevent me from being able to sell anything, the prospect of listing, arranging postage/collection and getting a fair price is far too difficulty a proposition when most days I can't even make tea, shower or prepare food such is the severity of my anxiety.

I know this may seem pathetic to most. It is. However, My life is an hour-to-hour struggle currently. I don't speak to any other humans at all, I have become a total recluse. The last 2 months things have gotten so severe I do not even go to my local shops as the anxiety I suffer has me fearing every interaction.

I struggle to leave the house to buy food. How am I going to survive this eviction process?? I am totally afraid. Totally alone.

My mental health is so severe the police have me listed as a vulnerable adult and visited my house 3 times in 6 months due to concerns for my well-being.

I cannot afford the storage or even the removal costs to get my stuff out of my house. I can't leave the house to look for properties that I can't even afford or have the space for all my stuff. As I'm in rent arrears and have been evicted under Section 21, no private landlord will accept me.

I hate the fact the Landlord wants me out, I owe her money, and she has had to pay the court to evict me, AND IM STILL HERE!! The stress I must be causing her and her family stresses me unendingly.

Since September, I check my mail everyday to see if the 2 week eviction notice has been sent so I can take it to the council. No such letter has appeared. I have heard nothing since mid-September. Because of this have gotten into even more rent arrears. My anxiety means I now expect to be evicted without notice any day. Every morning I wake at 5 am, ready for the bailiffs to turn up. I don't even think of leaving the house until after 5pm in-case I return to a house with changed locks.

My house is empty, soulless and echoey as 99% of what I own is packed in boxes and stored in my garage, anticipating the eviction daily.

Have also been prescribed medical cannabis oil and flower for my Mental Health, but it is only available on a private prescription, around £400 a month. I currently cannot afford anymore.

I am not eating, sleeping or even functioning. I do not leave the house. I am unable to even go to my local shops anymore as most of the staff know my struggles and ask how I'm doing, provoking my trauma and mental instability.

All friends and family I have lost because I acted horrifically towards them due to my emotionally instability,

I am raising money to clear my rent arrears, to clear my current account debt and pay for my medication.

Any extra money will help me pay for moving out of this house and finding a new property. Once I am in a new place, where my living costs are covered my PIP and Universal Credit, I'll be able to rebuild again, sell some stuff, and maybe even stream again.

I hope and dream for a day where I can be a streamer again. I miss it so much. I'm so sorry to all the many people who I've let-down, hurt or thrown support back in their face. Facing demons I have ignored for 30 years has resulted in inexcusable behaviours.

Peace and love.

I want to be out of this house TODAY. However, due to my Mental Health, not having any support network and financial situation have been told to stay here. I expected to be evicted in September, but the delay in the process has meant rent arrears have accumulated again.