Hope for Hope

It’s hard to know where to start. My beloved husband of 22 years passed away suddenly and unexpectedly on June 28, 2021 at work. I woke up that morning as if it were any other day of course. My husband John had just taught our daughter Julie how to make the perfect omelet the day before. I woke up and she proudly made me an omelet like her daddy would have. I was texting my husband right before breakfast at exactly 11 minutes after 11 am, I’m a late sleeper. It was weird that he didn’t respond he usually responds right away to me but I just figured he was busy on a road test or some kind of job he had to do but about 20 minutes later I got a call from his manager saying that I needed to rush to Orange Park Medical Center it was an extreme emergency. I immediately called my sister-in-law Tammy and she drove me there I was panicking I was out of my mind because I knew something really horrible had happened it was going to happen. When I got there they told me that they had performed an MRI and John had no brain activity and later was told that his eyes were fixed and dilated. He was brain dead. There was nothing wrong with him that morning or when I was speaking with him I couldn’t believe my ears. I thought the whole thing was it incredibly horrible nightmare and I was gonna wake up any minute with him lying right next to me or calling me or texting me. He always called me beautiful and I would do anything to hear those words again. Our daughter is not doing well with this she doesn’t understand that her daddy is never coming home again. There’s going to be a long investigation into what happened and we have a whole lot of financial issues coming our way. John was our sole provider…I work part time retail at a grocery store chain. I tried to go back to work on Monday the 12th but it’s not going to work out for a while. It was too soon I hope to go back as soon as possible but I just don’t know. I am lost I am confused I am sad and I am broken….. there are so many emotions. I Always thought I would be the first to go…. Never in my life did I think I would have to deal with this….especially the way he passed and the things I’m dealing with. It’s a sort of waiting game for me right now just waiting for answers waiting for any kind of explanation. A Very special friend of mine suggested that I should put out this plea due to our hardship on this website. It is hard for me to ask for help but this is an unusual and unexpected case for me. I appreciate everyone and I appreciate everything. John was such a hard worker. I am so grateful to everyone taking there time out to read this. Thank you for your time and for your consideration. I’m hoping to keep this updated as more information comes in. Thank you all so much.