I’ve decided to set my pride aside & reach out for help. The past few months I’ve been in a tornado of things & in the end the worst part, the passing of my daughter Namirya.

I would like to explain the last few months so that you could understand just a little bit of Mine & Namiryas story......

My pregnancy wasn’t what I’ve experienced before. I was so ill I could barely get out of bed. Not being able to work was adding to the stress and the whole pandemic & being terrified to get Covid only stressed me even more. 

Namirya was born at only 28 weeks, on November 18th at 5:45pm.

I went in for an ultra sound & it showed she was filing up with fluid & was in full congestive heart failure. I was then taken to labor & delivery where I needed to have an emergency c-section.

The next morning.. Namirya was transported by helicopter to Loma Linda University where she would get the help she needed to fight something called “Hydrops”.  Hydrops caused her body to retain fluid beneath her skin. Her poor little face was so swollen she could barely open her eyes. Her lungs were filling with fluid, her little heart was surrounded by fluid as well causing too much pressure & her little body was under distress. 

I was finally released & I couldn’t wait 2 visit my sweet, sweet Namirya!

Each visit with Namirya was short & hard. With Covid the visit schedule was weird & you couldn’t stay during or after shift changes! I just remember never wanting 2 leave &wanting to take her home & just cuddle her so she could get better in my arms, laying on her Mamas chest!

December 7th after 4 ER visits I was scheduled to have a D& C done because there was retained product of pregnancy in my uterus causing my body to contract & hemorrhage. I was being prepped for surgery & Loma Linda called to tell me my daughters blood pressure was dropping and they were worried she wasn’t going to make it. I could barely breathe & was crying & panicking.... I was terrified that Namirya was not going be ok when I came out of surgery!
When I woke up from surgery all I wanted to know was if she was ok! Finally I was able to call & was reassured she was doing a little better & was on new meds to help her blood pressure stabilize. 
During my procedure I needed 2 blood transfusions and I still  felt horrible. The hospital was trying to send me home & even though I wanted to run out of there & see my sweet girl I knew something just was not right! Got another blood transfusion along with plasma &..After finally coming home I then started having “symptoms of Covid”, but at that time didn’t even realize that is what it was.  

The morning of  December 29th  Loma Linda called me & said Namirya crashed & was barely holding on & that I needed to get there quickly to say our goodbyes! My sweet sunshine girl was losing her battle! My entire world came tumbling down.  

My poor little girl at just 1 month old passed away in my arms at 7pm just a few days after Christmas! I will never ever forget this day! To see her struggle to breathe.. & be so helpless is the worst feeling a mother can have! I begged, pleaded & apologized to her for not being able to help her or save her.

My heart is broken! 

The last few months have taken a mental toll on me and my children. I know we are all in binds & struggling with this pandemic, but I’m asking if anyone can help my family I would so greatly appreciate it.