Hello, my name is Joseph Earley from San Carlos, Arizona. I am Apache. I live in Phoenix, Arizona, where I am staying in a program called Hopess Residential Program. I am an alcoholic and addict, and I am honest to say that I have been living a rough lifestyle and been living everywhere. My alcohol addiction drove me to have diabetes type 2, stage 2 kidney disease, and high cholesterol. The drugs and alcohol hurt me a lot, and I am willing to stop my addiction. I relapsed a couple of weeks ago, and I am picking myself up and continuing to move forward. It is hard to find help for myself. I am not able to work until I complete my probation, and I am court-ordered to be in the program, so I have to graduate from this program. I have been here doing my mental health work to learn to control my addiction. I hate this addiction because of what I have put myself through and how much it has affected my health. It hurts to deal with my emotions. I grew up in a hard way and never had love growing up. I have been running to alcohol and others to numb my pain. I have dealt with trauma in my life and am still dealing with it. I didn't know that trauma could develop into depression, anxiety, and PTSD. I have been wondering why I kept going to alcohol and others for so long, and now I am learning about it here at this program. I am going through the program and writing down everything that is taught to me and putting it into action. I felt alone because I have been on my own for so long with my addiction. I started drinking when I was 13 years old and using other substances at age 16. It took a toll on me, and I was in denial for so long that one day I woke up and finally saw the truth. I feel sad because I didn't know there were others like me fighting this disease too, so I didn't feel alone here in the program. But I have trouble getting things for myself and need help. I am calling out to all my honest addicts and peers who are dealing with it or have someone going through it if they can help donate to me to help with my probation fines and my living expenses here to help me get started on growing and starting a new journey in my life. I am willing to stop my addiction and move forward for myself and to improve in sobriety. I have been in this lost life of addiction and want to be noticed by others who have a heart to know what it is like to be an alcoholic and addict to understand where I am coming from. Please help me to continue my journey in sobriety and to achieve my goals in life. Thank you for listening to me and understanding why.