Sandra funeral-her last way

On the day of 16 February I got a phone call which turned out to deliver the worst message of my life. My 18 years old sister took her own life. I'm devastated and still cannot believe this. Sandra was a young person with a lot of perspectives for her life. I'd never think her short, too short life would end in such a tragic way. She was that kind of person who can brighten everyone's day just with her presence. She could shine light on the darkness just by keeping someone company. I don't know what made her took her own life. I will never know and that will torture me until the end of my days. Maybe it was the lack of parent throughout our childhood, the foster care after which we were supposed to go to an orphanage or something else. We've been through a lot of bad things. I will always be sorry for not being able to help her out, for not letting me help her. The thing that I am the most sorry about is the fact that I won't be able to share another moment with my little beloved sister, see her beautiful smile and hear the sound of her soothing voice or simply go to the movies with her. As a brother and family we are shattered by the fact that Sandra has left this world being this young and in such a tragic way. I remember Sandra having a part in a show in which she acted, it was about Mental Health Awarenness. That show perfectly showcased how people prefer to mask and hide their own problems instead of asking for help. Don't forget about your loved ones and think about what may happen, even if someone acts happy or is happy. We will never know what is happening inside their head. Everyone fights their own demons. Don't forget that. Sandra's tragic and sudden death has left us mentally shattered, but we also aren't able to cope financially and cover the cost of the funeral at our own expense. Sandra lived with her brother, she had no insurance and thats why the costs are so high. That's why I decided to ask the people of the internet and friends to lend us a hand at this hard time. We believe in the power of the internet and appreciate any kind of help. ————————————————————— Dnia 16 lutego dostalem telefon i dowiedzialem sie ze moja 18 letnia siostra popelnila samobojstwo. Jestem w szoku i nadal nie dowierzam ze to sie stalo. Sandra byla mloda osoba, nigdy bym nie pomyslal ze jej krotkie, zbyt krotkie zycie zakonczy sie w ten sposob. Sandra, osoba ktora potrafila rozjasnic najciemniejsze pomieszczenie swoja obecnoscia. Nie wiem co sklonilo ja do samobojstwa. Nigdy sie nie dowiem i zawsze mnie to bedzie trapic. Moze byl to brak rodzicow podczas naszego dorastania, pobyt w rodzinie zastepczej z ktorej mielismy isc do domu dziecka lub cos innego. Zaluje, ze nie moglem jej pomoc, ze nie pozwolila sobie pomoc. Najbardziej zaluje tego, ze juz nigdy nie bede mogl z nia spedzic kolejnej chwili ani zobaczyc jej usmiechu. Uslyszec jej glosu i isc z nia do kina. Jako brat i rodzina jestesmy zdruzgotani faktem ze Sandra odeszla od nas tak mlodo i w tak przykry sposob. Pamietam bedac na Sandry przedstawieniu o Mental Health Awarenness. Dane przedstawienie pokazywalo problemy ludzi i jak oni je maskuja zamiast pytac o pomoc.Pamietajmy aby dbac o bliskich i myslec o tym co sie moze zdarzyc nawet jesli ktos jest lub udaje szczesliwego. Nigdy nie wiemy przez co mentalnie przechodzi druga osoba i z jakimi demonami ona walczy w swojej glowie. Sandry nagla smierc zostawila nas w mentalnej rozsypce, ale zarowniez z bratem nie jestesmy w stanie pokryc kosztu pogrzebu na wlasna reke. Siostra mieszkala z bratem w Anglii, nie miala ubezpieczenia, dlatego koszty sa tak wysokie. Wiec postanowilem poprosic o pomoc ludzi ktorzy chca okazac odrobine pomocy. Wierzymy w sile internetu i doceniamy jakakolwiek pomocy w tak ciezkim dla nas czasie.