Widow's Struggle After Tragic Loss

I have gone back and forth on whether or not I should make another campaign, but ultimately I decided it was my only option given the circumstances. As many of you know, my husband, Jacob Couch (32), was brutally attacked on April 5, 2025, in Tucson, AZ. We were on our way back home to Alabama. A year prior, we had just lost our son due to him being stillborn. My mental health has deteriorated due to losing my husband and witnessing this brutal attack. I opted out of making a campaign when this first happened because someone had made one on my behalf, and I truly believed I would be getting that money. I 100% relied on that money, and now I am completely lost on what to do. The original campaign raised almost 88,000 and the description read “so the wife doesn’t have to worry about anything”. I have been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder after watching my husband being killed. I have panic attacks almost every day, and it is a task to even get out of bed. I planned on taking time to let myself heal before going back to work, but without receiving the funds that were donated to me, I am struggling just to get by day to day. I know so many people have already donated, but not one dime went to me. In one of the worst seasons of my life, I am also having to worry about how I will be paying for all of my doctor appointments, my day-to-day bills, and my livelihood.

I have put in a request with the Pima county victims advocacy for lost wages and help covering therapy cost, but that isn’t paid out automatically. It takes time for them accept the request and I am still getting together a letter from my employer, therapist and a few other places.

I don’t feel like I should have to be doing this two months after the death of my husband, but due to recent events and finding out the man who I thought was trying to help betrayed me, I am struggling.

I want to thank everyone who has helped so far, and I’m sorry if you donated thinking the funds were going to me. If you cannot donate, that is completely fine. If it’s not too much to share this, I ask that you please do. I am under a tremendous amount of stress, and I don’t feel I should be having to worry about money right now. If I would have known this was going to happen, I absolutely would have started one from the very beginning.

Prayers are appreciated as well ♥️