My Next Step , For My Family and My Future ..

I am Abdallah Jouda, and this is my story.

A 24 years old ,Clinical Pharmacy student in my sixth final academic year.

Update

July 2025

Starvation has reached my family, and as you can see, I have lost a significant amount of weight about 13 kg . Despite all of this, I continue my clinical training as a pharmacy student. Every day I do my best to care for patients in hospitals with extremely limited medical resources, often working under immense pressure.

Amid the chaos, I have formed a plan to sustain myself and my family, and you can help me realize it:

I have begun a 6 month preparatory course for the IELTS exam, which is a standardized English language proficiency test. With this certification, even as a UN pharmacy technician while I am still in Gaza. I am also constantly applying for any scholarships I can find. Your contribution ensures I survive these next months, so that I can go on to earn income and support my family for however long we remain here, and once we are able to evacuate.

As many of you know, prices are extremely inflated. For some context:

-A 1 Kg of flour is $65

-Cash withdrawals come with a 50% fee

-My university requires $7500 to confer my PharmD degree (expected: March 2026)

$7500 is a huge barrier I Know , but the degree will lead to opportunities for me to make my own income. I have adjusted my fundraising goal to reflect this cost, plus about $2000 for other necessities. Of course, feeding my family will always come first. But this is where your money is going: to our immediate survival, and to my education so that I can find work and provide for my family now and in the future. Everything I do now is fueled by hope, and the will to survive, learn and help others.

If you want to support my goal, please consider contributing and sharing my story with your networks.

I have worked hard with a clear dream: to finish my university degree and travel abroad to pursue a master’s to grow, to contribute, and to bring better healthcare to my people. But everything changed with the outbreak of the war.

The university where I studied was bombed and completely destroyed. Our home, located in Jabalia Camp in northern Gaza, was reduced to rubble. We were forcibly displaced like hundreds of thousands of others carrying only fear and a few belongings. We fled to the central part of Gaza, to my grandfather’s house in Nuseirat Camp, hoping it would be a safer refuge.

We stayed in Nuseirat for about 80 days, enduring harsh living conditions and constant bombardment. But soon, the war reached us again. The area turned into a combat zone, and we had no choice but to flee once more.

This time, we moved to Rafah in the far south, searching for any sense of safety. But in Gaza, safety no longer exists. After months of displacement, we were forced to return briefly to the north in search of food and survival , only to be pushed back south again.

Rafah now it completely destroyed .

Today, The war is entering third year. We have moved back and forth between the north and south multiple times. We live among ruins, under constant threat, in a state of deep physical and emotional exhaustion. There is no electricity, clean water is scarce, and food is nearly nonexistent. What remains are fading memories, shattered dreams, and a few photographs of a life that once was.

All despite the loss, hunger, and destruction, I still hold on to my dream. I am still studying, still completing my clinical training to help patients, and still believing that one day I will escape this nightmare and rebuild my future ,

not only for myself, but for my people as well.

Update

April 2025

At the beginning of my final year of university, our institution resumed classes to complete the requirements for the Bachelor’s degree in Clinical Pharmacy. We have already begun this process, and I found myself wishing time would pass quickly so I could finish as soon as possible especially after so much time was lost due to the war.

I have great ambition in my field. I dream of leaving the harsh reality of Gaza behind, starting over in a place where I can grow, pursue my dreams, and help my family, who are burdened with overwhelming responsibilities. This is what I truly hope for right now.

I actively seek every opportunity to complete my studies in Clinical Pharmacy outside of Gaza, hoping to find a path to a better future.

I believe that any support or donations I receive will have a significant impact on my future.

They will give me the chance to rise again and start fresh, striving to achieve my dream.

I know this journey is worth fighting for, and I am determined to excel in my field so that I can return and serve my family and my people with all the knowledge and dedication I can offer.

Update 2025:

This is Gaza.

Between a bitter reality, a war of extermination, and deliberate starvation, At the same time, struggling through work and study to achieve the dream, To escape this raging hell .

I am currently living in Gaza, where the ongoing war has devastated every aspect of life. Despite the constant threat, destruction, and humanitarian crisis we are enduring, I continue my clinical training as a pharmacy student in a hospital setting. Every day, I do my best to care for patients with extremely limited medical resources, often working under immense pressure and emotional strain.

The situation here is beyond difficult basic necessities like food, water, and electricity are nearly nonexistent. We are facing widespread starvation and a complete collapse of daily life. In the midst of all this, I am also preparing for the IELTS exam, hoping it will become a gateway for me to leave Gaza and pursue scholarships abroad to continue my academic and professional development.

I am eagerly awaiting graduation, not only to begin working and support my family in securing basic needs like food and medication, but also to build a better future beyond the boundaries of war and suffering. Life in Gaza has become extremely expensive and unsustainable, making survival itself a daily challenge.

In parallel, I am also actively seeking online job opportunities that could provide me with a source of income, especially given the lack of physical job availability and the dire economic conditions. I am determined to fight for a better life not only for myself, but also for my family and community. Every step I take now from my clinical training to preparing for the IELTS and applying for scholarships — is fueled by hope and the will to survive, learn, and help others.

This is my family :

My Father, Dr. Maher, is a respected university lecturer.

My Mother, Mrs. Rawia, is a dedicated high school physics teacher.

Eng Ahmad (my eldest brother) he is married to Doaa, and they have a young son named Maher. During the war, they welcomed a second child, Jad, born under the harshest and most heartbreaking of circumstances.

Eng Mohammed

Lawyer Kareem

My two sisters, Ruba and Jana

Update :

January 2025

Return to Northern Gaza

Our home… between the past and the present.

We put in an enormous effort to restore our destroyed house, trying in every possible way to make it livable again. We challenged the destruction, held on to hope, and did everything we could to bring it back to life.

But that didn’t please the Nazi-like occupation… unfortunately.

Just as we began to feel a glimpse of safety, we were forced to leave once again.

We left behind walls filled with memories — a place we long for deeply.

Update

January 2024:

This tent in Rafah became our shelter during displacement a fragile piece of fabric that turned into a home after we were forced to leave our beautiful house, which the occupation has deprived us of ever seeing again in northern Gaza.

We are living through the unbearable suffering of life in Gaza.

There is no clean food or drinking water, no proper clothing, and no safety.

Everything we once dreamed of has turned into nothing but a fading memory.

Update :

2023/2024

This was my university before and after it was destroyed by Israeli airstrikes.

I once had a dream: to graduate and pursue higher education abroad.

But today, that dream lies in ruins, just like the university itself.

Everything I worked for was taken away. There is nothing left.

These are Maher and Jad my nephews who want to live a safe life, grow up and grow in a safe environment away from the sounds of bombing and terrifying planes. The war has been going on for 9 months without interruption daily. The innocent people are killed :(

Update:

2024/2025

I lost the dearest people on my heart, my dear uncle Dr. Saeed Jouda, the only orthopedic surgeon in North Gaza who was martyred at the head of his work at Kamal Adwan Hospital on 12/12/2024

And his Son Majd, who was martyred a week ago, is the lover of my heart and the friend of my childhood, who lived our childhood and life together and Majd was martyred on 4/12/2024

He also martyred My second cousin Mohammed, who was like a big brother of mine on 12/11/2024

Update

February 2025

We brought them home together, at last.

After the martyrdommy uncle and my cousins, they were buried hastily in different scattered locations across northern Gaza. At the time, it was impossible to do anything more the shelling was constant, the danger overwhelming, and the earth itself seemed to reject peace.

We lived for months carrying the unbearable weight of knowing that our loved ones rested alone, away from each other, without a proper farewell, without even a gravestone.

But when the situation allowed, we returned carefully, painfully and we exhumed their bodies, one by one. With our hands, trembling from grief and determination, we reunited them in a proper grave at the public cemetery.

It was not just an act of burial. It was an act of dignity.

We could not save them from death, but we could give them the rest they deserved.

We could give our hearts a piece of peace however small knowing that they are together now, side by side, as they always were in life.

Update :

12/11/2024

This is My home, which the occupation completely destroyed in northern Gaza (Jabaliya camp) about a month ago .

Update :

1/11/2024

I set up a Small pharmacy in a tent, as is the case in the Gaza Strip since October 2023. , where all people are in tents, and this is the case, I did it to practice my own profession, which is pharmacy, and so that I can spend and get money under the difficult economic conditions we are going through.

I named her Jad pharm after my nephew who was born in the war because I feel that he is the only beautiful thing that brought this war ❤️.