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We all go through turbulent times in life, especially around the holidays when you have a family to provide for. After seeing a post today from one of my friends saying he feels like a defeated man, especially hearing a veteran say that, hit me hard.
This is what he posted,
*been a long time since I've had tears in my eyes*
Where to begin?
Yesterday my wife and I found out that our landlord would be re inhabiting the town-home we've been renting(with the hope to buy), as of January 15th. We were on month-to-month. She's not the bad guy here, just due to the fact that she can no longer afford $1600/mth for her living in downtown and having the house at the same time. She's getting married and it's easier to use the home she already owns because she can't put 2 homes on her credit.*I hold no I'll will*
The past 2 months have been rough. My wife has had/has a series of health issues that I don't ever speak of (I'm extremely private like that), and for 5wks was out on disability(6wks without a payroll check). During this time she can barely get around or sometimes function properly. This put her at 80% normal pay, and to top it off, it took her company/insurance 6wks to even pay her...so mine was the only income we had. I had to take time off work to care for her and all of this was with out pay(this one of many rounds of this), I had exhausted all of my PTO taking care of her during all these times.
Through on top of that her piece of shit ex-husband who is still attached to her car with his name on the title as a co-owner. In her divorce she is responsible for it and had been making payments. 3months or more ago this fuckhead decides to claim it as an asset for bankruptcy and hides like a coward. She can't make payments(because it's being claimed and now they are reporting it as none payment)...therefore dropping her credit score.
So now we are stuck trying to scramble with no $ to fucking move into a place(deposit/first month rent/moving expenses), potential of her losing her car......and to top it off today, I come home and my poor little dog Squeaker was stuck between the bars to the gate to the basement(no idea how long he had been there), but poor little guy whining and pissed himself.
I feel like such a goddamn failure right now, as a person, a husband, a father. Trying to get custody of my daughter and now this fucking shit isn't going to help.
I haven't talked to anyone about any of this because I am very private, and try to keep positive and help everyone else...even when I didn't have the $, I still have because there is always worse off than me...and it's just who I am. If you need a shirt, here take mine.
My wife tried to create a Go-Fundme acct and I just can't fucking do it!!!
I been to hell and back, I e seen worse, and there are people worse off...though right now, I just can't...can't even manage my own health issues that I do a hell of a job hiding from the world(except my wife).
When...just when does it fucking end??? I mean fuck...a pot to piss in would be a step up. This is not for sympathy because...well it's not me. It was either this or lose my mind.
**sorry for clogging up your feeds**
This is from TJ Monson, a dedicated husband, father, and veteran. Not to mention a big supporter and contributor to the industrial music scene. Let's help give back this holiday season to someone that always gave his all to his family and his country.
And no Eric, it's not to buy the fucking cow on its back wine bottle holder....
This is what he posted,
*been a long time since I've had tears in my eyes*
Where to begin?
Yesterday my wife and I found out that our landlord would be re inhabiting the town-home we've been renting(with the hope to buy), as of January 15th. We were on month-to-month. She's not the bad guy here, just due to the fact that she can no longer afford $1600/mth for her living in downtown and having the house at the same time. She's getting married and it's easier to use the home she already owns because she can't put 2 homes on her credit.*I hold no I'll will*
The past 2 months have been rough. My wife has had/has a series of health issues that I don't ever speak of (I'm extremely private like that), and for 5wks was out on disability(6wks without a payroll check). During this time she can barely get around or sometimes function properly. This put her at 80% normal pay, and to top it off, it took her company/insurance 6wks to even pay her...so mine was the only income we had. I had to take time off work to care for her and all of this was with out pay(this one of many rounds of this), I had exhausted all of my PTO taking care of her during all these times.
Through on top of that her piece of shit ex-husband who is still attached to her car with his name on the title as a co-owner. In her divorce she is responsible for it and had been making payments. 3months or more ago this fuckhead decides to claim it as an asset for bankruptcy and hides like a coward. She can't make payments(because it's being claimed and now they are reporting it as none payment)...therefore dropping her credit score.
So now we are stuck trying to scramble with no $ to fucking move into a place(deposit/first month rent/moving expenses), potential of her losing her car......and to top it off today, I come home and my poor little dog Squeaker was stuck between the bars to the gate to the basement(no idea how long he had been there), but poor little guy whining and pissed himself.
I feel like such a goddamn failure right now, as a person, a husband, a father. Trying to get custody of my daughter and now this fucking shit isn't going to help.
I haven't talked to anyone about any of this because I am very private, and try to keep positive and help everyone else...even when I didn't have the $, I still have because there is always worse off than me...and it's just who I am. If you need a shirt, here take mine.
My wife tried to create a Go-Fundme acct and I just can't fucking do it!!!
I been to hell and back, I e seen worse, and there are people worse off...though right now, I just can't...can't even manage my own health issues that I do a hell of a job hiding from the world(except my wife).
When...just when does it fucking end??? I mean fuck...a pot to piss in would be a step up. This is not for sympathy because...well it's not me. It was either this or lose my mind.
**sorry for clogging up your feeds**
This is from TJ Monson, a dedicated husband, father, and veteran. Not to mention a big supporter and contributor to the industrial music scene. Let's help give back this holiday season to someone that always gave his all to his family and his country.
And no Eric, it's not to buy the fucking cow on its back wine bottle holder....
Organizer and beneficiary
Jonny Retro
Organizer
Seaford, NY
TJ Monson
Beneficiary