Single mom of 2 needs help.

I always said my life should be a hallmark or lifetime movie. But a friend of mine said my life was too dark for hallmark maybe lifetime.

It was funny at the time but not now. I always was told to write a book. But I feel like I can start but not finish it since I still suffer from the most bad luck a single mother can. It started when I was a child but not gonna start there. AND I AM TRULY EMBARRASSED FOR BEGGING.

In short I have suffered traumatic events since then. My eldest boys were molested from a so called family member. My most recent trauma occurred in 2016 when I was involved in a domestic abuse relationship & in 2020 my baby boy was diagnosed with leukemia & a month later my oldest son died in a car accident. I finally was able to break free from the abuse in 12/2019. But I still suffer. I still had never recovered from my son’s death. I allowed my 3rd husband who is abusive to help coparent our son. He became to comfortable in my home & so the abuse started again. I didn’t report it at first because I was afraid. Finally called the cops & they only arrested him on rape charges. Did not include the domestic abuse. Well all charges were dropped by the DA which left me devastated. During coparenting & assualt I ended up getting sick & had to miss over 10 days of work in October. Before & after that had to miss many more days at work due to the domestic abuse. I lost income for not working. I did not have enough coverage to get paid time off of work.

Now I am trying to get back on the right foot & motivate myself. But due to the amount of work I have missed I am 100% in debt with household bills. I cannot pay my rent this month, my pge, my internet service or my cell phone. So I am just asking for some compassion. This is one of the hardest things I have to do for my family is asking for help. I feel like rock bottom. Last weekend I went to the food bank. And I don’t even know if my kids will have a Christmas this year. Please help. I’ve always been able to live on my own with my kids. But this year is some kind of demon. I believe in God and Jesus Christ. I just don’t know what to do but pray. If you cannot help financially a prayer works too. I’m still going to work with a smile on my face. But my heart is broken. Thank you.

$1600 for November and December rent = $3,200.

$151 for internet for September and October

$232 for PGE bill due November

Remaining balance goes to gas to get to work and household items and food.