This is the hardest thing I have ever had to write. It embarrasses me to ask for financial support for I have always prided myself for being financially responsible and providing for my family, especially my sons. But it is for my boys that I am attempting this. I love them too much to lose them.
 
I am a Military Veteran, serving 14 years in the Marine Corps. I recently left active duty service and am looking for employment. Unfortunately my spouse and I have been going through divorce. We had a very rough 10 years together although we were blessed with two beautiful boys during our marriage, Carson 7 and Mason 6. It is because of them I am typing this. The thought of divorce itself has always scared me for I have always had both parents in my life. My spouse comes from a different background where she grew up with her mother and never really got to know her father. The military provides free legal support for people going through divorce. I have on numerous occasions tried to get my spouse to utilize these free services and work together for the sake of our children and not have to spend thousands of dollars in attorney fees. Money that could be utilized to start college funds for our boys.
We owe it to our boys to do what is in the best interest of them. They didn’t do anything deserve being in the middle of this. I do believe two parents can be divorced and still raise children together.  I have always promoted my spouse and I working through this together but she fights me anyway she can. I want my boys to have their mother in their lives and would never try to keep them from her. I do not believe she has the same intentions or beliefs about me being active in my boy’s lives.  My spouse chose to hire an attorney and utilize the court room to get her way. I have been falsely accused of domestic violence on numerous occasions. She has attempted to get a domestic violence restraining order against me based on fabricated truths and distortion of actual events without any evidence to support her claims. Such accusations were made in an attempt to gain sole custody of our boys by brandishing me as a bad person and father. Due to the extreme nature of these accusations and how it would affect the outcome of our divorce process and my ability to see my sons, I had to hire my own attorney and spent an outlandish amount of money defending myself against her false claims. The money I was forced to spend was supposed to be used to help me transition out of the military into a new job. Like I said, I have always provided for my boys and will not be the type of father who doesn’t support his own kids.  I had to endure a temporary restraining order placed against me during this process in which I did not get to talk or see my own children for 23 days until our hearing. That’s the longest I have ever gone without talking or seeing them, even on deployments. My spouse dropped the request during the hearing for the  restraining order when the truth came out and the claims did not at up. Even through all the false allegations, thousands of dollars wasted and things she has put me through, I have tried and continue to work with her and her attorney for the best interest of our boys. I dont feel I am making any progress towards keeping the boys in both our lives. I was glad to survive this personal attack of my character,  but it left me not being able to afford my attorney any further. She still has her own attorney and is using them to pressure me into finalizing our divorce allowing her to leave the state of California with our boys. I do not want to lose the boys; they are my life, my motivation and why I will not give up. She is from Texas and I am from Wisconsin. I look at California as a neutral state for the both of us. I want what’s best for our boys, having both  parents active in their lives while she is trying to run away to home and take the boys with her. I don't believe seeing the boys every other month, if I am lucky, constitutes being an involved father or is fair to our children.  Since letting my attorney go, I have tried to handle this situation the best I could by trying to communicate and work with her to come to some kind of agreement. I am worried if I don’t get another attorney soon, I am going to lose these boys to the courts, allowing her to take them away from me.

If you've read this far I want to thank you for taking the time. Please help me by sharing this story with others. For those of you who donate, I humbly thank you for kindness. I am not looking to gain personally from this, I just don’t want to lose my boys and need proper representation to ensure I don’t. Any money not utilized for hiring an attorney I will donate to the Wounded Warrior Project.  

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