Hi, Im noah an im hoping to raise money so that I can pay for my own top surgery

ive been waiting now for 5 years.

And I don't know how many more years I will have to wait with the NHS.

I was 15 years old when I first referred in 2021, to the northern gender clinic for children. I asked about being put straight into the adult service considering my age but my GP assured me that with 3 years till I turned 18 that I had no reason to worry and I'd surely be seen before that point.

Three years later, when I aged out of this service. I was promised by my GP that I would just be moved onto the adult service, and that I would keep my original start date on the wait list.

When I didn't hear anything from the adult service, I got nervous and so three and a half months after being discharged from the childrens service in december 2023 i checked in only to find that i was never accepted onto the waiting list for the adult service, they weren't taking new patients. and any new service i signed onto wouldnt respect my original referral date

I wasted 3 years waiting for nothing. and so i started the wait again this time with the nottingham center for transgender health, i referred to this on december 7th 2023

Now it is 2026, I'm 20 years old. I paid my own way to get on testosterone which I've been on for almost two years now. I don't even want to think about all the money I've spent getting as far as I have. I wanted to learn to drive, get a passport, and travel. But all of that had to be put aside so that I could afford a psychologist to diagnose me, an endocrinologist to prescribe me. and the 100's of pounds for blood tests and testosterone that I've been paying every three months.

I was hesitant to go private for top surgery. It's just so much money, and thinking about all I've had to miss out on just to be where I am with testosterone, paying for private felt impossible.

And so I've been waiting. and all this time I had a date in mind, December 2025. when I was supposed to get to the end of that waiting list. I check the waiting list every couple of days, sometimes even daily, and for half a year now it's been showing the same date. “Now seeing patients referred in March 2023” any hope of me seeing them in December went away real quick. So I have no idea when I will finally see an NHS doctor.

And that's just the first appointment. It's then another year to wait after that for a second. And then who knows how long to get top surgery. I can't wait that long. I can't keep having my life put on hold because of this.

For example, I love the beach, I go there every summer. I love being in the sun. swimming in the ocean especially. But I don't anymore. I haven't for years because I can't get my binder wet. I only have one.. If my swim shirt is damp it'll be pretty uncomfortable to wear for the rest of the day. And what if it clings to me weird? This is just one example. But there are so many more

It's something that impacts me day to day so much. And I just know my life would be so massively improved if I could fix this one thing.

And I don't see a near future where I could pay for this all on my own, I'm a full time university student. Every year I'm getting thousands in debt that I don't have a shot of paying off. Not for decades

I'm a young carer. I do Freelance digital art on the side when I get the time. A part time job feels impossible. Not that I haven't looked. I just can't find anything that works. With my life. I live on my own in student accommodations most of my week. I travel back on weekends to help out my family. It's a constant back and forth and there's no job that fits my weird unpredictable free hours

People tell me my early 20’s are meant for experiencing new things, trying new fashion, being mostly care free. And with the way things are going. I risk missing out on this because of an NHS system that is underfunded and doesn't care enough.

Please help me put a stop to all this waiting?

Thank you :)