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Hello there, my name is Cindy and this is my story.
The beginning of 2019 an abscess on my tailbone was found. What we thought was nothing major turned into a never ending pain that changed my life completely. These past 17 months have consist of; endless doctor visits, pain, tears, hospital visits every month, infections, many procedures, and 6 surgeries. I had to quit my job, put school and my social life on hold and spend months in bed. Every doctor I went to did not want to operate due to an aggressive infection and rare cyst that I had. Until enough was enough. On July 2019 I had my first surgery. Unfortunately, my wound never healed properly because an infection that kept returning. 4 months later I had a repeat surgery that had some complications and in result a 10cm deep wound with a wound vac. Months went by and I was getting worse so that called for another surgery. This time around I decided to go to a different surgeon to get another opinion. This surgeon and every other surgeon I came across could not believe how deep my previous doctor had to cut down because of all the bad bacteria that was in my wound cause by the infection. They explained to me that they had never seen a case like mine. 95% of people usually heal from this and there’s that 5% that don’t and I was one of them. So May 2020 my 3rd surgery happened. I felt good about this time and I thought okay, this is it, I’m finally going to be cured but that was not the case. I kept having very excruciating pain, fevers, inflammation all over my buttocks, infections and it got to the point where I couldn’t walk or sit anymore. I was so frustrated and upset because I kept getting told by doctors that I was okay and that this was part of the healing process. But how could they say I was okay when I was showing all these symptoms? Deep down inside me I knew something was wrong. So I prayed to god and I said, “God, I know you are in control and know that you will heal me, but I am tired of suffering. Please help me find a doctor that will help me end this pain.”
On June 29,2020 I was rushed to Stanford hospital for an emergency surgery. The infection had spread everywhere and four new cysts were found. Doctors were concerned because not even a month had past since my 3rd surgery so they couldn’t believe how bad everything had got in such little time. They gathered up a team to perform my 4th surgery and also the director of surgery wanted to be in the operating room to make sure everything went well this time around. As it did, everything went well, and luckily they caught the infection on time before it could go into my bone. 2 weeks later I went back for my follow up appointment and things weren’t looking good. I was immediately admitted for iv antibiotics, lab work and another MRI. Scans showed the infection was back and i had new cysts forming. At this point I was losing hope. I felt like I was in a bad dream and couldn’t wake up from it. I couldn’t believe this was happening again. I am physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted from all the trauma I’ve been though these past 17 months. Due to all this I suffer from anxiety and depression and low blood pressure from all the narcotics I’ve been having to take. This experience has made me look at life differently and appreciate it more because tomorrow is never promised. I am so grateful for everyone who has been by my side during this hard time, especially my mom. She has never left my side and helps me with everything. I seriously don’t know what I would do without her and my dad. Although I am tired of receiving bad news and being in so much pain, I’m not giving up. I am a FIGHTER! I will continue to fight and stay strong and believe that god is in control. I ask you all to please continue praying for me and I hope that one day I can put all this behind me and know that I won this battle.
I made this gofundme account to share my story and also ask if you are able to help with medical expenses, medications and rental expenses as I will be going to Stanford more often than I expected. I understand everyone has a lot going on due to Covid-19, so please don’t feel pressured to give. If you are able, any amount is greatly appreciated. Thank you so much and I hope everyone is staying safe.
God bless you all❤️
Psalm 46:5
The beginning of 2019 an abscess on my tailbone was found. What we thought was nothing major turned into a never ending pain that changed my life completely. These past 17 months have consist of; endless doctor visits, pain, tears, hospital visits every month, infections, many procedures, and 6 surgeries. I had to quit my job, put school and my social life on hold and spend months in bed. Every doctor I went to did not want to operate due to an aggressive infection and rare cyst that I had. Until enough was enough. On July 2019 I had my first surgery. Unfortunately, my wound never healed properly because an infection that kept returning. 4 months later I had a repeat surgery that had some complications and in result a 10cm deep wound with a wound vac. Months went by and I was getting worse so that called for another surgery. This time around I decided to go to a different surgeon to get another opinion. This surgeon and every other surgeon I came across could not believe how deep my previous doctor had to cut down because of all the bad bacteria that was in my wound cause by the infection. They explained to me that they had never seen a case like mine. 95% of people usually heal from this and there’s that 5% that don’t and I was one of them. So May 2020 my 3rd surgery happened. I felt good about this time and I thought okay, this is it, I’m finally going to be cured but that was not the case. I kept having very excruciating pain, fevers, inflammation all over my buttocks, infections and it got to the point where I couldn’t walk or sit anymore. I was so frustrated and upset because I kept getting told by doctors that I was okay and that this was part of the healing process. But how could they say I was okay when I was showing all these symptoms? Deep down inside me I knew something was wrong. So I prayed to god and I said, “God, I know you are in control and know that you will heal me, but I am tired of suffering. Please help me find a doctor that will help me end this pain.”
On June 29,2020 I was rushed to Stanford hospital for an emergency surgery. The infection had spread everywhere and four new cysts were found. Doctors were concerned because not even a month had past since my 3rd surgery so they couldn’t believe how bad everything had got in such little time. They gathered up a team to perform my 4th surgery and also the director of surgery wanted to be in the operating room to make sure everything went well this time around. As it did, everything went well, and luckily they caught the infection on time before it could go into my bone. 2 weeks later I went back for my follow up appointment and things weren’t looking good. I was immediately admitted for iv antibiotics, lab work and another MRI. Scans showed the infection was back and i had new cysts forming. At this point I was losing hope. I felt like I was in a bad dream and couldn’t wake up from it. I couldn’t believe this was happening again. I am physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted from all the trauma I’ve been though these past 17 months. Due to all this I suffer from anxiety and depression and low blood pressure from all the narcotics I’ve been having to take. This experience has made me look at life differently and appreciate it more because tomorrow is never promised. I am so grateful for everyone who has been by my side during this hard time, especially my mom. She has never left my side and helps me with everything. I seriously don’t know what I would do without her and my dad. Although I am tired of receiving bad news and being in so much pain, I’m not giving up. I am a FIGHTER! I will continue to fight and stay strong and believe that god is in control. I ask you all to please continue praying for me and I hope that one day I can put all this behind me and know that I won this battle.
I made this gofundme account to share my story and also ask if you are able to help with medical expenses, medications and rental expenses as I will be going to Stanford more often than I expected. I understand everyone has a lot going on due to Covid-19, so please don’t feel pressured to give. If you are able, any amount is greatly appreciated. Thank you so much and I hope everyone is staying safe.
God bless you all❤️
Psalm 46:5
Organizer
Cindy Torres
Organizer
Tulare, CA