Vyne get out of Florida

Hi! I'm Vyne! I'm a 25-year-old Trans Non-binary, queer content creator. I figured this would be a better way to collect all the funds to move, so here I am!

Some of you know, last year I attempted to move out of Florida but ran into some complications (including a $2k car repair). So here I am, a year later, with a place to go and a better attitude about it.

CW: Mentions of suicide, suicidal thoughts, abusive family.

My current position in Florida is one that severely affects my mental health. How did I get here? I was born in Florida, but my maternal family moved to Oregon when I was 3. I came out as trans at the age of 13 and then at 15 (still very openly trans) was told to live with my mother, but I refused due to her abusive boyfriend. Then, I was sent from Oregon to Florida to move away from my grandparents and in with my father. During the years 15 to 18, I was forced to detransition from family pressure. While 18, I lost my mother, was hospitalized for a suicide attempt and was kicked out by my father shortly before turning 19. I spent a few years attempting to mend the relationship between my father and me after years of emotional, verbal, and occasionally physical abuse, desperate to keep at least one parent, to no avail. It's now been a year and a half since I shared any words with him. I've narrowed it down as much as I can, but I feel that covers the part of my father.

Aside form that, I've had many sour experiences which affect me so poorly I have panic attacks whenever I enter the city limits. I moved away from Tampa to Orlando on my own in 2021. I no longer make friends here, I don't leave my house, anyone I DO speak to is online, and the only time I spoke to anyone was the brief few months I got a job at a nearby mall. I ended up having to leave this job at the beginning of March because I was so mentally unwell from stress and medications that I was having suicidal thoughts and nothing seemed to matter anymore. I was having breakdowns at work in front of my managers, working half my usual pace, vomiting 2-3 times per shift for 3 weeks, could hardly eat at all, lost weight, etc. Severe spiral. I've been able to get a bit mentally better since leaving and working on content again.

Now to talk about my future.

I'm raising money to move to Texas. I know, it's not any better than Florida. The difference is that I would be a few hundred miles closer to my sister and niece, living in an ACTUAL house with some close friends, and have even more friends in the surrounding area. And I'll have plenty of friends in the area as well. It'll be a big change and I can see myself not isolating. I want this to be a big jump in bettering myself and my life which I know staying in Florida won't do for me. If I'm entirely honest, the longer I stay in Florida, the harder it is to see a reason to keep going. I hate thinking like this, and I've been actively working to pull myself out of these thoughts.

So this is me, being vulnerable, and asking for help. My lease is up on May 24th, so I'd need to raise all the money I can preferably by May 10th.

Check out my links if you're also interested in supporting me in other places!

https://beacons.ai/vynetv