Support Dana's Journey to Stability

Hello, My Name is Dana Price and Over the last five years I have endured a large number of challenges. Through it all I have clung to my faith in God and tried to keep my head up. Some of the things are not my story to tell but the ones I can share, my husband of 26 years decided he did not want to be married to me anymore, apparently he had been cheating. He left with little notice and he had 75% of the income. I had no place to live , little income, and two of the 3 kids were still with me as well as two young grandbabies. We moved 5 times in the next 9months, trying to find our place and just survive. It was very difficult and I felt like a huge failure. My marriage was over and I could not provide for myself or my family, I was also very lonely, and isolated and depression began to set in. I tried to fight it with everything I had. I ended up hospitalized because I was really hopeless. With medication and some new skills I set out again to try and recover and then COVID arrived and the world changed again. Then my husband caught COVID and died. My children were devastated and we had no way to pay for a funeral. Still I tried, and I tried to hold it together robbing Peter to pay Paul and working multiple jobs. Months later a man began to pursue a relationship with me, I was very lonely and I talked to him for 6 months before our first date. He was good at wooing. He turned out to not be a nice man. He raped me and hurt me, he beat me, threatened me and held me in fear with threats against my children and grandchildren. He threatened to kill me, I often wish I had let him. I had to have surgery as a result of what he did to me, I had an infection that was resistant to medication, from him. I needed a second surgery, I was sick. I used up all my FMLA and lost my job of 12 years. I struggled with my extra jobs which were not enough to pay the bills, I got further behind and in deeper in the hole I started in. Then after several months I got a new main job. I began working trying to save up leave for my next surgery, trying to pay bills and get out of the hole of debt. But one thing after another happened. My car that I had managed to pay off that had 191,000 miles on it died. It was the only vehicle I had. I had no transportation. There is no one in my area to carpool with I have tried. So I bought a new car trying to be economical. It is not a dream car but it gets good gas mileage. The problem is I had to borrow money for the down payment that I cant pay back, I can't pay for the tax, title and tag. I am trying to go to school to get a Master's degree to get a job to make better money so I can support myself because the job I have now does not pay the bills. My laptop got struck by lightening in May when the storms were coming through, I can not afford to get a new one and I can not afford my text books. In February,I got kidney stones that blocked my kidney and I had to have emergency surgery. Then I had to have a second surgery to blast the stone. As a result I lost all 4 of my extra jobs because I was unable to work while that was going on I was to sick. The pain was making me puke. I would not wish it on my worst enemy. So I lost all the extra income and I was really struggling. Getting further and further behind, deeper and deeper into my hole. I have filled out 100's of applications in the last 6 months and only gotten 2 interviews. no job offers. Then lately someone hacked my bank card and spent money out of my account and it caused my rent check to bounce. I filed a claim with the bank the canceled my card. I will eventually get my money back. But my landlord charges late fees back to the original day it was due when the check bounces plus a return check fee. So not only do I owe my rent but now I owe double the amount with all the fees and I don't have it or the ability to make it. I have tried to sale clothes and books which are about the only things I own and I have made a whopping $23. and it is a lot of work for that amount of money. I have no furniture of value or even taste they are all someone else's cast offs. I have no jewelry beyond cheap costume garage sale finds. My husband pawned my wedding rings. I have bee starving with no groceries in the house and embarrassed to go to the food pantry, but occasionally I have to because I have nothing to eat and no money to buy any food. Now I have a car I can not tag, I really can't afford it, but I can't sale it until I register it. I have medical bills I can not pay. I am in the hole with my landlord, and they will be trying to evict me quickly. I tell you all of this to say I feel Like a complete and total failure! I am not getting myself in any better situation no matter how hard I work, no matter how hard I pray. I know that Jesus feed the 5000 with Five fish and I keep asking him to help me with my small salary but it is not happening. I tell myself he is not concerned with the things of this world and I should not be either but I can not go on with out a place to lay my head and food for my stomach and safety. Last week in the horrible heat I went without electricity because it was the thing I could not pay. It was extremely hot and i did not sleep very well at all. I worried about my poor dog, who is my emotional support animal. She is there to try and help me and to keep me safe. Right now I can not take care of her and really need to rehome her. It all makes my depression really really bad and I want to give up, my debt is a deep hole and my despair is getting even deeper and darker. Heaven is a wonderful place and why do I want to continue to stay here and suffer like this/ With Jesus there is no pain, no hunger, no worry. Here I can not even buy a birthday gift for my Granddaughter. Last weekend I almost took my life I was very close. I am fighting very hard to hold on, so to that end if you could see your way to help me dig my way out of a little of my financial hell so that I might start on level ground instead of starting in the negative like I did when my husband left and I have never been able to get over the hump no matter how hard I have tried. I can not do this, I have no one to borrow from. My children borrow from me and I can not support us. I have reached my limits I have always lived by the scripture I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me but lately me strength is very weak and I am reaching out in despair asking for help. I do not know what else to do. Thank you for reading my long rambling story.

Here is an accounting of my most pressing needs keeping me up:

$2000 down payment

I am guessing $1500 TTT for the car

I need $1375 for rent to catch up for July.

$2400 to catch up my car.

Anything will help and be appreciated.