Visit with my father

This is my dad ( papi). I don't get to see him very much since moving to Los Angeles 22 years ago, especially once my parents moved back home to their birthplace of Puerto Rico. He's had parkinson's for quite some time, but seemed to manage. Was a hard worker all his life. He's one of the few I can say has always been on my side.   Every year it gets harder and harder to see how much he's aged in photos that only shows me how I won't have him in my life very much longer.  This latest photos show me how much more he's aged since I saw him the summer of 2017 just before hurricane Maria not even 2 years ago, when we all got to be  there as a family.

This year has been very difficult as his health has deteriorated. During our visit and again last year he has made his wishes known for his final days.  Last year my father went into a Veteran's home, as it got to be too much on my mom with her own health problems, and my dad needing much more care.   He has loved it there, which was a major relief for me as I feared for his welfare when you hear of so many horror stories of homes for the elderly and because the state of affairs in Puerto Rico still has not fully recovered even though things seem to be well.  

Now is where I come to the point. This past March my father had to go into the hospital 3 times within 3 weeks and all being major health concerns which left us worried on whether he would make it or not.  The last one being the scariest where his kidneys started to fail and had a bowel obstruction.  What made it much worse for me, I had no means of being able to go out there.   My older sister and younger brother, who both live on the east coast, made their way out there and everyone kept me up to date as to what was happening. Again, we knew his wishes and when my mother was asked if it came to certain decisions, what were they. My mom, told me that at the time my dad was pretty conscious and aware and it was his decision. Thankfully, things changed within 2 days and 2 days after that, he was back at the home. But I still feel anxious at the thought he could very well wind up back in the hospital at any time , or worse, and I have not seen him and would likely not make it there in time if the worse were to happen. 

I've been pricing airfare from LA and it's anywhere from $700 - $900. I live paycheck to paycheck as an independent contractor in various fields. So I will need airfare plus enough money to spend quality time with my dad and family as well as making sure when I get back I have the money needed to pay my bills. 

Asking for help, is a difficult thing for me. This is an even harder thing for me to do, is ask for money.   But I see no way of making this happen. "Any" donation you make, is greatly appreciated.  

Thank you for taking the time to read through all of this. I hadn't anticipated it to be so long, but I just let my heart speak for me.

Many blessings to everyone!

Thank you!