Victim of Severe and Long Term Domestic Violence

Hey guys my name is Nate (Nathan),

I'm really not sure where to start or what to put down here really as it's all still too painful and genuinely panic enducing. The mental and physical toll this has all taken on me cannot be understated. I'm also not sure where else to go, who to ask or what to do at this stage.. but things have gotten so dire, so stressful that this is one of my last options I can think of.

I'm really, really hoping this is able to reach out to those who might be in the financial position and understanding enough to help donate.

The main reasons I am reaching out are the facts that I’m not in a permanent home, I’m behind on rent.. weeks. Desperately need my own place, not just for a roof over my head but my mental health. I have minus money in my bank account. I work as a motorcycle instructor but due to all the horrible things I've been through both recently and over the past 3 years of my life I struggle leaving the house, let alone teaching a class full of 5 different students everyday for hours.

I am so overwhelmed and weakened physically, mentally and spritually that I'm in a complete freeze state. I have tried absolutely everything I possibley can.

It's been incredibly frustrating and honestly heartbreaking seeing the way the systems treats those suffering from DV. I've tried QLD Government Housing, Salvos, Red Cross, UnitingCare and now trying NDIS as my last resort.

Due to many reason, most personal, I do not have any family and all my support group have moved out of QLD a long time ago.

I almost feel sick opening up a GoFundMe for this situation of mine, I'm extremely hyper independant so reaching out for help has always been particularly hard. I have to accept that the situation I am in, I cannot do alone anymore. My career is suffering, my mental health is.. it's honestly worrying me as I don't have many peopel to talk to and cannot afford my Psychiatrist appointments at the moment.

The amount that I am asking for will only being going towards finding a new safe home (transport of items, bond, 2 weeks rent), food, small pieces of furniture (only such as a bed, fridge and possible qwashing machine) and being able to afford appointments for my Psychiatrist. Getting my life back to the healthy, positive and productive life it once was.

I won't make this a 'woe is me' type of message. I've been through many incredibly tough hardships throughout my life but I have to accept that this one is just too much for me to handle on my own. I feel incredibly embarassed and almost ashamed of myself that I have to reach out like this. This is very much a long shot but I'm truly on my last legs...

If you do donate.. THANK YOU. Thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul.

If we manage to hit the target, not only will I post updates on my life and how much everyone helped; I will also be creating my first 'official' video of me dancing on the motorbike as a giant thank you. If we somehow manage to go over target all the extra funds will go towards a DV support charity which I will get you guys to vote on the charity that you think helps with DV the most.

If you donate and would like any more information or have any questions, of course reach out and I'd be happy to answer all of them in detail.

Thank you for your time guys, I truly appreciate it.