This is so difficult for me but I’m doing the best I can to keep my head above water and under a roof.

I have been suffering from Complex PTSD resulting in anxiety and depression. I’ve had a lot of abuse and traumatic events happen in just the last few years on top of unresolved childhood trauma.

I literally broke, felt it happen. Now things that I was able to do before with ease are challenging.

I’ve been unemployed for the past year. I’m down to the last bit of savings. I need my care, otherwise, you might as well kill me. I’ll never survive the streets.

One of the worst things, Roscoe is dying. He’s stopped eating. My best buddy.

I need medication to continue to heal and work again but I need a job to pay for those meds but I can’t be well enough to work without meds. Vicious cycle.

On top of it, I feel like I’m doing this completely alone. People either don’t want to deal with my PTSD, don’t care, or don’t know how to help. I just know that for me to have a chance, I need helping hands.

I know I’m also falling into the large group of recently furloughed federal employees, which is making this so much harder.

I just need help getting through this until I’m gainfully employed again or if someone takes me in temporarily while I navigate the new “disabled” label on me. If you want more information, let me know. Please know that for me to ask for help, I’m in a really low place. I just need support, time is always better than money to me (but I still have bills to pay).

I hope to obtain a service dog when employed again it’ll help so much.

I appreciate you reading.