Hearing my son's words "Mom, why can't I live in a different world where kids are like me?" And "I don't feel loved, everyone is mean to me", is devastating. My first born, smart, sensitive, intelligent little boy unable to feel, process and connect in a way we were all born to do. In my heart I have always known Mason was different. Not able to form full words or sentences at age 4, unable to make friends or socially interact and play like the other kids do. He is now 8 years old and feels alone in this world. I feel hopeless and need the support to help my baby understand he is unique, loved and special. Alone, I have exhausted every resource the state provides without luck. I have tried Doctors, specialists, therapists, the school district, IEP and here I am with my hands to God in prayer that someone will listen to me and not want to throw medication at me and say "This is what Mason needs in order to function." My baby boy does not need medication, he needs someone that is willing to listen. My voice and opinion as his mom should be valued and heard. Mason suffered a traumatic birth, broken collar bone, bruised face and what felt like a lifetime of CPR. He is now struggling in school reading at a 1st grade level, falling below average, getting suspended from school and kicked out of daycare. He has so much anger and hurt and it's so difficult as his mom to feel like I have failed him. In a world of social media wanting everyone to see the surface, the strong independent single mom. But behind our smiles were struggling, hurting and screaming for help. My fear is that if I continue to let this go my son will isolate himself, get involved with the wrong people, end up in the system or end his own life. My goal is to raise enough money to help Mason see the top children's psychologist and neurology scans to properly fully diagnose and create a life of understanding and education to his struggles. The tuition costs of a school where he can learn and thrive in. Most of all I want my son to be able to connect, feel loved and know that being different is what makes us special. Thank you for taking the time listen and hear words from a mom who's desperate for help. If unable to help financially please send your prayers, as those preform miracles.