We L⭕️st a TWIN (My St⭕️ry)
While Pregnant with twins, We lost one of our baby girls. We lost her when I was around 25 weeks pregnant. No answers, and tons of questions, we are devestated.
Here is my TWIN pregnancy story:
December 29, 2015 I found out I was pregnant. This was my 5th pregnancy, and a pregnancy I didn't feel my body was ready for. This pregnancy was nothing like ive felt before. Before I went to my first Doctors appointment I kept thinking, this has to be TWINS, just has to be. I have never felt this sick with my other pregnancies, I have never felt this hungry, I have never showed this early. All these things that were happening to me led me to believe, TWINS. When I was 7 weeks pregnant I went to get my first ultrasound. I was scared, excited, and SICK. As the Doctor was looking for the embryos, me my husband and 4 year old son were watching the screen. We all saw the first baby and OMG we all saw a SECOND one! The Doctor right away said "uh oh" looked at the nurse and everyone smiled. I started crying. I was happy and relieved and scared all at the same time. Feeling so sick and weak and so very starving I was so hoping two babies were doing this to me. And when I found out it was, it was pretty amazing. The first trimester was the absolute hardest. Ive watched tons of videos where women talk about how much better the second trimester will be, but I honestly thought no way that is happening for me. I honestly thought I'm going to feel this sick my whole pregnancy. I was really sad about that. About a week into my second trimester though,I actually started to feel normal again! I was walking around a lot more, I was finally feeling good enough to eat food, I wasn't throwing up anymore.... most of my first trimester symptoms were leaving me and I was so happy about that. While in my second trimester, our landlord wrote us a notice to move. This couldn't have came at a worse time. We stressfully looked and looked for another place to live. Packed up our house, and all through this my body was in a lot of pain. I was happy the first trimester symptoms were gone, but the 2nd trimester brought all the physical pain. We eventually found a place to live but it wasn't ready to be moved into and we had to be out of our house. So we ended up staying in a hotel for a few nights, then stayed the remainder, about 2 weeks, at my moms. I slept on the couch at my moms cause it was more comfortable than the bed she offered. Every appointment and ultrasound ive had had been going just fine. Both babies were growing, healthy, nothing was ever brought up that something wasn't right. My husband and I were so excited when we found out they were going to be GIRLS. Wow two girls! :D .... That would make 5 girls and one boy ;.) ... One night while staying at my moms, everyone was in bed. I was laying on the couch with my son. As I was laying on my back, I felt different, my stomach felt different. I had this weird numbing feeling on my left side. and when my stomach would contract, it just didn't feel right anymore. But I never thought anything of it. I never thought my baby was in trouble. I still felt many kicks and punches. I thought I was feeling both of them moving. :.( The morning of June 16, 2016 I had an ultrasound appt. Before we went I had a bowl of cheerios. U know how sometimes when your almost finished with your cereal and you look in your bowl and somehow the cereal makes a shape of something? On this morning that's what happened to me. I looked in my bowl (last bite) and I saw a heart. <3 ...But being the person I am, The first thought was (wow, of course... this can only mean something bad) I was so angry I didn't want to finish it. But then I thought, Why? why go somewhere negative all the time? ...Maybe this can mean something good! So I actually finished my cereal and we went in for the ultrasound. I was 28 weeks pregnant. We had my daughter and son with us this time. I was in the bathroom giving a sample, and as I got out we were going into the room but my kids were not there. My husband said the nurses took them into a different room cause they weren't allowed in the ultrasound room. (what!? really??) Didn't believe that AND as we were walking in a family of FOUR just walked out. Two kids Two adults. YA.... The man doing the ultrasound was acting strange to us and only showed us one of the babies heart beats. He says "So could they not find a heartbeat? is that why they sent u in here?" Huh? what? we didn't understand. He was about to kick us out and my husband says "well can we see the other babies heart beat?" I was just really confused and didn't know what was going on. The guy says "I can show you if you want" And he does. As he started to show the babies he says "One of the babies hearts stopped beating" ............. I stared at the ceiling for a bit while he was talking to my husband. Then he showed the babies hearts. He says "See this babies heart is beating, and this one isn't" He said it must have happened around my 25th week of pregnancy...I couldn't believe what I was seeing and hearing. This is crazy, how could this happen? Why is this happening!? What did I do wrong, what didn't I do right!? As they finished talking and I sat up, I just started balling. I couldn't breathe, I was so angry, I just wanted to get my kids and leave...No one could give us answers. No one ever gave us answers. No body knows WHY.... Since then there has been lots of sadness. Lots of questions I ask no one but GOD. I don't think ill ever understand this. So the scary plan now was, carry the babies as if a normal singleton pregnancy ;.( I felt horrible. .... July 1st 2016, contractions started to get really intense. They were only 8-10 minutes apart so I knew from previous pregnancies that that they weren't close enough together to go in, and I was only 30 weeks pregnant. The contractions never eased up and never got any closer together. The pain only got worse through the night and I didn't even get one minute of sleep. At 6am I finally made my husband drive me to the hospital. A Doctor there checked me and I was already 8-9 c. Dilated, I was so scared. If they didn't put me on everything to stop contractions, I would have had them in the next hour I was there. But they were able to keep the baby that was doing ok in for a day.....July 3, 2016 both babies were born. Baby A was born first, without a heartbeat. We named her Aeris River. We held her, took pictures and cried. Baby B born second and let out a little cry. We named her Beatrix Luna. She was taken straight to the NICU. They are and always will be, twin sisters.
Here is my TWIN pregnancy story:
December 29, 2015 I found out I was pregnant. This was my 5th pregnancy, and a pregnancy I didn't feel my body was ready for. This pregnancy was nothing like ive felt before. Before I went to my first Doctors appointment I kept thinking, this has to be TWINS, just has to be. I have never felt this sick with my other pregnancies, I have never felt this hungry, I have never showed this early. All these things that were happening to me led me to believe, TWINS. When I was 7 weeks pregnant I went to get my first ultrasound. I was scared, excited, and SICK. As the Doctor was looking for the embryos, me my husband and 4 year old son were watching the screen. We all saw the first baby and OMG we all saw a SECOND one! The Doctor right away said "uh oh" looked at the nurse and everyone smiled. I started crying. I was happy and relieved and scared all at the same time. Feeling so sick and weak and so very starving I was so hoping two babies were doing this to me. And when I found out it was, it was pretty amazing. The first trimester was the absolute hardest. Ive watched tons of videos where women talk about how much better the second trimester will be, but I honestly thought no way that is happening for me. I honestly thought I'm going to feel this sick my whole pregnancy. I was really sad about that. About a week into my second trimester though,I actually started to feel normal again! I was walking around a lot more, I was finally feeling good enough to eat food, I wasn't throwing up anymore.... most of my first trimester symptoms were leaving me and I was so happy about that. While in my second trimester, our landlord wrote us a notice to move. This couldn't have came at a worse time. We stressfully looked and looked for another place to live. Packed up our house, and all through this my body was in a lot of pain. I was happy the first trimester symptoms were gone, but the 2nd trimester brought all the physical pain. We eventually found a place to live but it wasn't ready to be moved into and we had to be out of our house. So we ended up staying in a hotel for a few nights, then stayed the remainder, about 2 weeks, at my moms. I slept on the couch at my moms cause it was more comfortable than the bed she offered. Every appointment and ultrasound ive had had been going just fine. Both babies were growing, healthy, nothing was ever brought up that something wasn't right. My husband and I were so excited when we found out they were going to be GIRLS. Wow two girls! :D .... That would make 5 girls and one boy ;.) ... One night while staying at my moms, everyone was in bed. I was laying on the couch with my son. As I was laying on my back, I felt different, my stomach felt different. I had this weird numbing feeling on my left side. and when my stomach would contract, it just didn't feel right anymore. But I never thought anything of it. I never thought my baby was in trouble. I still felt many kicks and punches. I thought I was feeling both of them moving. :.( The morning of June 16, 2016 I had an ultrasound appt. Before we went I had a bowl of cheerios. U know how sometimes when your almost finished with your cereal and you look in your bowl and somehow the cereal makes a shape of something? On this morning that's what happened to me. I looked in my bowl (last bite) and I saw a heart. <3 ...But being the person I am, The first thought was (wow, of course... this can only mean something bad) I was so angry I didn't want to finish it. But then I thought, Why? why go somewhere negative all the time? ...Maybe this can mean something good! So I actually finished my cereal and we went in for the ultrasound. I was 28 weeks pregnant. We had my daughter and son with us this time. I was in the bathroom giving a sample, and as I got out we were going into the room but my kids were not there. My husband said the nurses took them into a different room cause they weren't allowed in the ultrasound room. (what!? really??) Didn't believe that AND as we were walking in a family of FOUR just walked out. Two kids Two adults. YA.... The man doing the ultrasound was acting strange to us and only showed us one of the babies heart beats. He says "So could they not find a heartbeat? is that why they sent u in here?" Huh? what? we didn't understand. He was about to kick us out and my husband says "well can we see the other babies heart beat?" I was just really confused and didn't know what was going on. The guy says "I can show you if you want" And he does. As he started to show the babies he says "One of the babies hearts stopped beating" ............. I stared at the ceiling for a bit while he was talking to my husband. Then he showed the babies hearts. He says "See this babies heart is beating, and this one isn't" He said it must have happened around my 25th week of pregnancy...I couldn't believe what I was seeing and hearing. This is crazy, how could this happen? Why is this happening!? What did I do wrong, what didn't I do right!? As they finished talking and I sat up, I just started balling. I couldn't breathe, I was so angry, I just wanted to get my kids and leave...No one could give us answers. No one ever gave us answers. No body knows WHY.... Since then there has been lots of sadness. Lots of questions I ask no one but GOD. I don't think ill ever understand this. So the scary plan now was, carry the babies as if a normal singleton pregnancy ;.( I felt horrible. .... July 1st 2016, contractions started to get really intense. They were only 8-10 minutes apart so I knew from previous pregnancies that that they weren't close enough together to go in, and I was only 30 weeks pregnant. The contractions never eased up and never got any closer together. The pain only got worse through the night and I didn't even get one minute of sleep. At 6am I finally made my husband drive me to the hospital. A Doctor there checked me and I was already 8-9 c. Dilated, I was so scared. If they didn't put me on everything to stop contractions, I would have had them in the next hour I was there. But they were able to keep the baby that was doing ok in for a day.....July 3, 2016 both babies were born. Baby A was born first, without a heartbeat. We named her Aeris River. We held her, took pictures and cried. Baby B born second and let out a little cry. We named her Beatrix Luna. She was taken straight to the NICU. They are and always will be, twin sisters.
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