Hello, my name legal name is Rebekah but you know me as Kat. I am asking for help. With a confluence of surprise cancer surgery and the caregiver agency I have cutting off care, I am in a crisis. I have been searching for a new agency for two years, but due to my complex needs and Covid disrupting the already fragile system, I have been unable to find care. the agency I currently am supposed to receive care from has been sued before just to provide me basic care. Unfortunately, I will need to sue them again as they have violated the court order. The lawyer I previously used has a wait list, and that can take months, if not longer, before they can help me again. I will need to stay alive in order to see this through.

I have been struggling quietly because I do not like to burden people or ask for help. I have to get a few things so I can cook for myself, manage trash, and bathe without the medically required care. The emergency surgery is on Tuesday. I did not actually wait to ask, but this was scheduled Friday because of how sudden and serious the cancer situation is.

Czernobog has everything he needs. I cannot, however, figure out the rest. Add in the cancer, and there are now medical bills because my insurance does not cover everything I need. I hate to ask, because we are all struggling but I want to survive. I know I have not told everyone what is going on lately either. Some of that is because I do not know what to say, and some of that is because I know what is going on with a lot of the people I care about, and I do not want to put undue burden on those who are already struggling as is.

On the emotional side, I am scared and tired. I shouldn't have to figure out how to do the things that I am supposed to have help with because it's not safe, but I also cannot live without the care. It is not optional. I made it almost three years without a reset to the cancer remission clock. I got used to hope. So I am fighting for the hope either way. That means I have to ask.