Urgent Help Needed for Michelle to Return Home

My name is Michelle McDonald, and I was flown out to Washington state to try to better myself, and it was the worst decision I have ever made. I am now stuck here around people with extreme drinking problems, while I am trying to remain clean and sober like I have been for years now. I cannot let them bring the worst out in me. This is the worst place I could possibly be in and the worst type of people I could put myself in the same housing situation as. I am NOTHING BUT MISERABLE HERE! I have been here since April 12th and wanted to go back home to MD within the first 12 hours. I have been tormented and physically and verbally abused since I touched down here, and I have been applying to 10 to 15 places each day trying to make the money to FLY BACK HOME AND GET BACK TO WORK. I'm having the worst luck getting any calls back for any of the jobs I've applied to. All I have wanted since I got here on April 12th was to get a job, anywhere, IMMEDIATELY. The very few calls I actually did get were way too far, and since I have no vehicle here, I have NO way of getting to many jobs. This is a very, very small town, and even the closest store to try to walk to in order to get a drink or something to eat is 8 miles away.

I have no prior criminal records and a clean driving record. I have no vehicle here, so I have NO way of getting anywhere, even to the store to get a drink or some food. I am stuck in a shed 24/7 and have to have wood planks in the slider door frame and in the window pane so no one can physically get in here to start with me. Instead, I am screamed at and threatened from outside my hut/shed that is seeming more and more like a cell daily.

I have so many job offers back home in Harford County, Maryland, where my vehicle is. I'm not having any luck here, and my mental state is just getting worse, being as if I'm in lockdown and surrounded by alcoholics. I can't do this anymore; it's driving me crazy, and I'm only going backwards the longer I'm here. I refuse to let all the progress I've made since I lost my mom, the best person in my life, go to waste. I promised her I'd do everything in my power to make her proud.

I don't have anyone to ask for help, and I HATE having to ask for help. But I am crying 24/7 and have no one to talk to. I can't go anywhere. I'm too far up on a mountain to walk anywhere. The closest store is 8 miles away, and the walk back would be on an incline of 75 degrees. I need help! I need help in the worst way!!! I just need to raise enough money to fly back home and get my car registered, and I'll be back to work within 2 weeks of being home.

This was the worst mistake and idea I've ever gone with, thinking I would do better all the way across the country. ABSOLUTELY NOT! I AM ALONE AND DEPRESSED AND JUST WANT TO GO HOME! I will pay back every single cent to whomever can share anything they possibly can. I know times are hard, but I am losing my mental state, and I don't know what else to do. This is my last resort. I have no one to ask for help. Please help me get out of this abusive situation. I can't handle much more...