Hello,

It's really hard to reach out sometimes but I have found so many communities that I embrace and embrace me as family .

I will try to explain as best I can.

I fell a little over a year ago starting a new job on the second day as an Assistant Manager on a huge outdoor step pavement.

It was initially diagnosed as a sprain and nobody caught it until 5 months later as a calcaneus fracture. And it's an injury I was told that is often rare ti find it doesn't always show up on imaging.

I didn't return to the job because they accused me of deleting files and all I did was sit there watching YouTube training videos.

I had to seek legal action at the time but wasn't able to get much of a solution or care for my ankle.

Let me rewind now.

I was living in an SRO community for almost 8: years.

It was an old boarding house , actually an all women's community and living with nuns who became some of my closest friends. I helped the building out as well because of my property management subbing for the resident manager from time to time

During COVID,we received a building eviction. The building was not being maintained and 5 residents passed away sadly during this time.

My job at the time working fora hotel also during COVID cut my hours to once a week.

I ended up on unemployment for awhile during the building eviction.

I got another job soon after that was brief because of everything going on and I was so I thought set up to live in a low income housing , but I made $100 too much at $17 an hour as a Leasing Agent ironically. My background has been in Administrative ,Customer Service, Management, Hospitality and in Property Management over for around five years until 2019.

I was tired as a Manager of a building and Supervisor during that time while on medical disability but I found my choir which saved my life and I am at the core a Singer.

I have been with with Voices of Our City choir since 2019

that does so much for the unhoused community so I understand the highs and lows .

I ended up on my friends floor after the building eviction.

This was my former house and that's an entire other story.

I was o the floor for about a year and it was difficult for me and my friend.

I was working during that time for around 6 months a contract position at Jurassic World .

A month after this job ended I was going to start the new job as an Assistant Manager for a property association.

As mentioned,at one point in my life I was an Office Manager for a building,so I thought I would go back to this line of work

This was in May,2023,one month after my Jurassic World contract ended.

I ended up falling on the second day of employment on their property outside not seeing this huge step and walking as of it was the sidewalk.

I reported it right away and was even bleeding and the Manager did nothing.

My foot swelled like a football and I couldn't walk.

The Management company advised me to go to Urgent Care and they identified it as a sprain.

A few days later they contacted me saying I deleted files and needed Administrative training two hours away from where I live when I couldn't walk and I never did anything but look at training videos for two days.

I don't drive and I was unable to walk but I was told I was fine.

I ended up seeking Legal Assistance.

I took my small legal settlement which basically was buying me out,I could have fought more but was trying to heal

At the time,I told them I would return but not to Santee when I was hired for a location close today my house and couldn't walk.

I still thought it was a sprain at this point.

I never got adequate care because I had to wait until the legal settlement cleared and had to see their doctors who seemed me as fine.

My lawyer got me an Orthopedic surgeon which took 2 months to see it wait for.

It turned out after 5 months,that he identified it as a Calcaneus fracture.

He informed me it was a rare fracture that is not always seen and Urgent Care and the Emergency room missed it.

At this point, I've been to physical therapy who now doesn't want to see me because they now see it's a fracture.

I've been on crutches,ina boot at this point and finally use a cane that I still use and have used off and on, mainly on for over a year. It's been hard to walk and I developed chronic pain for almost the duration of the year which I still have today.

However with my small legal settlement I received ,I moved out of my friends floor

and found myself in a beautiful Airbnb that I somehow managed to live in since last September,2023.

The rent is $1,500.

Hear me out, I kept renewing it . I was on a wait list for a low income place but they took me off because I was unemployed and didn't qualify for unemployment since my last job really ended in April,2023.

I was put on State Disability but it took months to receive.

However with my small settlement and state disability at the time,I could have a safe place to sleep while figuring things out.

However the state disability funds were not a lot and not renewable and they exhausted itself in March,2024.

I have been without income since March relying on faith truly.

I was still going to doctor's during this time, using a cane and often than not in pain and then it shifted to chronic pain, sometimes daily.

In May I was able to get General Relief which is around $500 a month and I was told to apply for Social security that is still pending 9 months later.

The case has not even been assigned as they have a 5 month back log for many people. I applied in February before my benefits exhausted its funds and initially was told it would maybe be by September or October that I would get an answer.

I ended up getting a Legal advocate with legal aid who informed me the case has not been assigned, could tape a year and to contact a Senator .

However I have

general relief until October that a doctor's note provided me with white waiting for pending social security application I turned in last February.

I can't stand on my feet for more than an hour, not even a half hour. If I do I experience intense pain.

However the only job I obtained as a temp job for several days to a week, sometimes 12 hour shifts was for The Convention Center. I used to work with them many years ago for many years.

I worked throughout July including working for Comic Con.

This reactivated the intense pain and I'm back to using a cane everyday.

I am looking for work but being in daily pain makes it hard to look for work some days or hard to travel too far or walk.

Obviously there is still a medical issue with my ankle that really has not been assessed properly and it was misdiagnosed the first five months which transgressed the pain elsewhere.

I understand it's not logical to stay at any place you can't afford especially without any real income.

However I really wanted a quiet,safe Central place and was able to afford it until I lost my state disability in March.

I was told not to work during that time and honestly was in no shape to do so,often going back to the Emergency room especially dealing with intense nerve pain.

There are no other resources to hold me up as I wait for social security or attempt to look for work which I have.

However it's already hard to look for work,to explain this when needed or to see me with a cane doesn't place me in too of the list.

I also have been diagnosed in 2019 with Anxiety disorder and I have always suffered from learning disabilities including dyslexia I had since I'm a child, and I believe ADHD which I was told to get tested for by a professional but couldn't afford it and still would like that test. I don't tell this often and so this has in the past been difficult for me especially as a Manager making $14 managing a building and having my boss call me dumb because it's hard for me to concentrate.

However it doesn't mean I don't want to work,it just doesn't come easy for me but my gift is singing, music and helping people.

And I do have a strong customer service background I hooe to rely on .

Back to my ankle and foot.

I have been walking hardly able to walk with a came for almost a year off and on and now on again.

I've been in chronic sometimes almost daily pain for a year that I still presently face.

I had a orthopedic surgeon who found the fracture five months after it was misdiagnosed as a sprain.

However he treated me less than human and ultimately told me he couldn't help me and lied in his notes saying i wouldn't consider Surgery when I never said that. He said that to me and they never changed the notes.

So I started all over with a new medical facility and got myself a case manager,a housing navigator,a new foot doctor where the MRI says it's just a non harmful cyst.

However I went back last week where my new Orthopedic doctor who looked at me and said look I can see the X ray shows you had a fracture.

However from my perspective the calcaneus healed no pun pun intended. And I'm looking at you and can see you're in pain.

However my belief is because this was misdiagnosed in the first initial five months,is why you're still in pain,we are talking over a year later.

He ordered a Cat Scan that is pending with my insurance for approval. And it's my belief that the pain transgressed everywhere else .

Then I'm told I'll always be in pain and have arthritis.

And then told by another doctor it's just a little bit of pain so you're fine. Pain is pain. Sometimes I didn't need the cane I've been tooling around for a year so I seemed fine but it isn't because it was misdiagnosed and never properly treated.

I've been out through the ringer regarding the medical system especially when you are low income and thankfully I even have Medical,you have to advocate so hard sometimes.

All of July I worked and interviewed for months prior.

I didn't get any of the office job interviews but I'm still trying.

And unfortunately as great as working again felt , it nearly killed my foot and nerves in my foot and now I'm back to using my cane not able to walk well of st all some days and in pain daily sometimes chronic pain

I was told to consider a homeless tent option but I ideally am trying to make the transition of everything easier on me and my foot.

I don't have family here in San Diego or any living relatives I talk to except my Dad in France who I haven't seen in almost three years and I don't want to worry him and he's not in a position to help me.

I'm really not trying to give a sob story.

I love San Diego and have a wonderful support system here

I've lived in San Diego nearly 17 years through ups and downs trying to find housing but every time Ilay my head on this pillow in this private beautiful room,I feel extremely blessed.

The goal is to get back on my feet pun intended and to heal and

I have faith.

I don't qualify for unemployment and not sore I qualify for State Disability while applying for social security but literally have no income.

By an amazing blessing my Airbnb host will let me stay for the month of September.

I have $70 to my name but I get general relief $500 on 9/2.

I really owe her $1,500 before 9/1.

She has been nice enough to let me do rent payments partial rent payments when needed.

This has been an extraordinary humbling experience.

I realize I need to find something at this point ASAP, a remote job ideally but something that doesn't compromise my health or stress as I'm still not healed as they figure it out.

And maybe look for a cheap room or if in October I don't get a closer answer on the status of my disability or a job go back to the drawing board

I've had angels who have helped me some of the way.

Then I just pray for a miracle or continued resilience.

Sometimes life will let you fall so you can pick up the pieces of your life and I also believe in paying it forward.

I have faith and determination to somehow find a solution but I do need a little help. It's hard for me to admit it but it's a fact.

Sending to all and all that have helped me.

Update -

By a miracle and the kindness of the donations I made the rent.

It alleviated so much stress of trying to figure out a work opportunity while not knowing if ill have a roof over my head and blessed to have this place until 9/30.

I interviewed for something last week and today and it's still a process especially when they know if my injury or if I have a long ways to go,but I'm trying on my part and waiting for the door right door to open.

I feel so incredibly humbled and blessed.

I can actually stay until 10/31 I was told today and now stressing out how to pay that but until i get a job or s check from a job,I need around $900 to make that happen.

One day at a time and the stress of thinking about that is exhausting but I am so blessed to have another month possibly even one more and hope that buys me more time and peace as I figure all this out.

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude how strangers who never met me would take the time to listen and help me.

I don't even have the words to express how that feels except to simply say from my heart, Thank You.