Hey everyone, friends, family, the occasional stranger, I’m struggling.

As many of you know, I just found out I was pregnant a month or so ago, and some of you know just how sick I got during my first trimester to the point I couldn’t keep food or water down and I lost 20 lbs while pregnant. I missed about 3 months of work, and I just got back to work. My family has been trying to support me, but everything is about to fall apart around me.

This child is a miracle from heaven above, and the last thing I need is to be stressed about finances, but I’m at the point where I can no longer get extensions on my bills. I’m struggling to put food in my fridge, gas in my car, and I’m struggling to buy my dogs' food. I’m so behind, I feel like I’m drowning. I don’t know how I’m supposed to afford my appointments for the doctor, let alone keep our electricity and water on. It’s not just me who relies on me doing my part. On top of all of this, I have to retest for my certification to do the work I do before Oct. 14th, or I won’t have a job anymore. There are 3 other adults and 5 children in my house who depend on me doing my part. My family has tried to help almost at the expense of not affording their own bills. I’m finally back to work the last two weeks, but September is a breaking point. If I don’t have my portion this month of things, I’m afraid we’re going to lose power, lose our water, lose our home even. My mother and Granny just can’t help me anymore. They’ve kept me afloat while I wasn’t able to work, and their sacrifice has been much appreciated, but my Granny is retired and my mother is severely ill and has had to do very questionable things in order to keep the roof over my head.

I need help. Anything helps, absolutely anything. I’m terrified and trying to lean on God and my community for support during this tough time. If I can make my payments this month with the help of my loved ones, I know next month I’ll be able to carry my weight myself. I’m terrified to ask for help, I don’t want to be judged, but it’s past the point of if I don’t get help, I’m going to crash and burn. I know I’ll be okay. God’s always got me wherever I land, but right now, while I’m carrying my child, the last thing I need to worry about is losing my home or job and putting not just myself, but my family, our pets, and my unborn child at risk because I wasn’t able to work for 3 months. I’ve been rejected by so many credit cards looking for an answer. I don’t know where else to turn but to you.