I am down to 85lbs.

That what this comes down to. After leaving the hospital last October I was 105 and eating fine. I've always had some trouble with food, never intentionally, but no matter what I do I just keep dropping weight.

My Dr has decided that I need to be put in an inpatient program. My insurance will cover most but not all of my stay.

If you've read this far, thank you. Another thing that I have not made public is I have been diagnosed with Autism.

Big shocker right!?

I am relieved, angry, hurt and all of the things looking back. But, it's me, I'm tough. Weird, but tough.

Through this diagnosis I learned I suffer from ARFID an eating disorder not well known and common in autism. That on top of autistic traits, like not realizing I haven't eaten unless someone else brings it up or asks me to cook.

So that's where I am. 85lbs, starving to death unintentionally and scared.

The program is a two week group house situation with person therapists, dieticians and group nutrition classes. I'm basically being sent to force feed me up to weight and find in a controlled environment what works for me in the real world.

Thank you to everyone for reading, sharing and being there.