Urgent Help for a Fresh Start After Hardship

First of all, thank you for taking the time to read this. I have found myself in a situation for the first time in my life and having to beg. Maybe 3 and a half months ago, I lost my job, wrecked my car, and lost my wallet all within a week's time.

To give you some context, I moved back next to my mother on Hutchison Island about a year and a half ago. I came to find that my mother was in active alcoholism with a prescription of oxycodone and valium, with suicidal ideations to sprinkle on. I had to get a therapist because the wounds of the inner child were still raw. Tried and failed to help Mother.

The real question is, why was my life falling apart? I'm talking about breaking cycles; I'm talking about breaking the chains that bind you. God bloody shame that I was living under the illusion of a mother-son relationship. In 2015, my father passed away, but my mother manipulated my father while he was dying of cancer and had me taken out of the will. Now, I am grateful for this because I probably would have overdosed if I had the money at that time in my life.

Here we are currently. I'm an emissions coordinator for a drug and alcohol treatment facility, and I can't even get my mother help. My life is falling apart, and I don't know why. God had to show me that being around my mother is no good for me; she has always been jealous, spiteful, resentful, and intoxicated. Now, when I came to my mother about forgiveness maybe a week ago, and not to myself but to God, she had me evicted.

Currently, I'm at a Wawa in West Palm Beach with no gas, wanting to get to day labor, wanting to get to an AA meeting, wanting to go to the career source center to make sure my unemployment is going through. At this point, anything will help. I'm putting my pride aside. Again, thank you for taking the time to read this. Anything helps. I did not share this for you to feel bad; even if you can't help, you should be proud of everything that I've been through, and it's a miracle that I'm even still here with a smile on my face. I love you all.