Hello, I’m in desperate need of help, I’m so sorry to even ask the community.

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I had my first major mental health crisis in July 2025 and I’ve been unable to work since August.

I’ve been living off of my credit card while attending intensive therapy, with no financial support and no caseworker to help me navigate public benefits.

My therapy program ran M-F, 8am–3pm, for three months until my insurance was gone. I was supposed to get continued care beyond this.

It's emotionally exhausting, and between the schedule and the mental toll, I didn’t have the capacity to handle the complicated process of getting SDI or other assistance. The phone lines are always overloaded, the online portals haven’t worked for me or my friends that tried to help me, I’ve been stuck in a loop where every option leads to another barrier. I'm fighting so hard to escape this and get the help I need, I don't want to be in this situation.

My health insurance was discontinued five days ago, which has cut me off from the mental health support I still urgently need. I tried to apply for Medi-Cal, but the system routed me through Covered California to sign up online; when I called a few days later to check up on my app, they told me they had no record of my application. I attempted to reapply by phone, but I was told I need documents I have, except one: my Social Security card, which I’m trying to replace but don’t even have gas money to drive and resolve in person as there's phones are busy and their online portal told me for a second time to try to apply on a different day. My partner waited on hold with the SS office today to try and help me only for the call to drop after an hour of being on hold.

I’m doing everything I can to get assistance, but my mental health, lack of insurance, and lack of transportation have all become huge barriers.

I feel overwhelmed by all these little bureaucratic rules and lost trying to navigate this alone.

What caused my mental breakdown?

I was in a toxic work environment. I can’t share details because of an ongoing legal matter, but the emotional fallout was severe and it ultimately led to my breakdown.

I’m following the proper legal process, but it is slow and leaves me without income in the meantime.

I’m asking for any help, mostly financial support would be the most lifting, but also any resources, & advice, that could help me get through this immediate crisis.

Yes, I'm going to food banks. It's the one resource that isn't complicated to receive.

Thank you for reading this, and I’m so sorry to be in a position where I have to ask. I'm sorry.