Hello everyone, the last time I created a gofundme it was to help raise money so I could afford my own insurance in order to make the appointments I need to find out what has been causing me to become chronically ill for the last 12 months of my life. My symptoms have been at an all time high and have been progressing horribly in the event that I am being medically neglected. I can't eat drink or even swallow my own spit or water without causing severe belching that is not within my control. I have to walk a distance to get it out properly otherwise it gets stuck and puts me in immeasurable pain and it is extremely inconvenient considering I have saliva pouring from my mouth as this air is forcing out every step I take as I belch, so I have to go outside to have room to belch and spit but if the wind is bad i have to hold it in and accept my fate because it will push the air right back into my throat considering it's difficult enough to get out in still air (ventilated area) as it is and is no match for mother nature. I have never been so helpless in my own body and I can feel my throat in a constant state of scratchiness and burning that makes my mouth pool with saliva all day every day. The only true relief I have been able to provide myself with is smoking medical marijuana that numbs the pain to a degree and makes it more tolerable for me to sleep or move around and also dries out my mouth exceptionally. I also have had this spastic swallowing problem that I believe is a result of the stress my throat has been put under by throwing up almost daily for months on end. It is so awful my swallow reflex will cut me off as I am speaking to swallow without my consent and I could literally be pushing air out of my gut and my body will react with a swallow not within my control because of how sensitive my throat is. However, marijuana also minimizes my swallowing problem significantly once it kicks in and relaxes my throat muscles. It's been a long and hard journey of getting constantly dismissed because we didn't qualify for this or that even with straight medicade and are still looking for answers even after having an endoscopy. My insurance still does not cover the medicines they sent to my local pharmacy I need in order to combat this sickness in the meantime until I can get properly diagnosed. I have been suffering like this cold turkey also because I haven't been able to swallow pills since March because this has gotten so bad. And the pills I took before that were over the counter and the only ones I could get access to without insurance. They are called Omeprazole and Famotidine and just stopped working entirely after relying on them for over four months with minimal relief. After my endoscopy they had me make a new appointment with my gastroenterologist so they can test me next for "gastroesophageal reflux disease with esophagitis without hemorrhage" and discuss possible steroids for my swallowing issue. My endoscopy results were only able to conclude that I have "hyperplastic squamous mucosa with focal hyperkeratosis and chronic inflammation. No evidence of eosinophilic esophagitis with only a rare eosinophil identified." They said it's possible this illness could be a mix of three different things all in severe cases due to my lack of treatment and that's why I can't seem to find anyone online experiencing similar struggles as myself. It's been so lonely feeling like I'm the only one dealing with something like this and having no one seem to have any answers or understanding for me when my main goal of the day anymore is to just get food in me and go to sleep before my food wants to come back up because if I don't sleep after I finish belching from my meal I will throw up without a doubt as the belching slowly drags up my stomach contents with it. So once I start eating for the day I no longer get to focus on anything but getting my stomach right. And when I wake up it's a toss of the dice whether I will immediately have to deal with holding back vomit or if I have a couple hours of relief from that nausea (not including the belching) before I start to taste acid that becomes so unbearable I am forced to stop what I'm doing so I can eat and go to sleep to avoid throwing up acid and it repeats every single day. I am in a constant state of survival and the lowest weight I have been since elementary school. I rarely get to enjoy any activities I like to do let alone my hobbies anymore because I am physically unable without severe consequences for not running outside to aid my body every time my stomach tells me to. I have zero social life, I have lost myself completely in this illness and can't even recognize what it has turned me into. And now a new development has occurred that has forced me to reach out for help once again. Me and my boyfriend of 1 year and 4 months have officially broken up unfortunately. I have been heavily dependent on him to help me with everyday necessities I struggle to do while I am sick. I am now completely on my own dealing with this illness with no stable support system in the meantime. This event has forced me to move into my uncle's basement until I can afford a place of my own. I am physically unable to work no matter how desperate I need and want to, no one will hire me in my condition because it is not socially acceptable to be this ill in public. I do not have a way to get disability and I am desperately looking for donations so I can afford to sustain a living on my own, while simultaneously battling for proper treatment and a real diagnosis. I am in an incredibly hard position and I have no other options. My fear is that I will be doomed to endure this horrible illness in the winter weather considering we are currently in Michigan. The goal is to move south so I don't have to deal with obnoxious weather changes before summer ends but right now that is looking close to impossible without any help. All of the odds seem to be against me and I really need the support. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and please like and share so I can get the word out!!!