My name is Jensen and I am a transman. Recently, I had a double mastectomy to remove the breast tissue that marked me as a “girl.” When I spoke with a representative through my insurance company, I was instructed to file a claim for the surgery but was denied because it was believed to be “cosmetic.” As if I wanted to remove my breasts to make myself feel more attractive. For me, this wasn’t about being attractive, it was about looking like the man I saw myself to be. Before the surgery, every time I got dressed or looked in a mirror, I was reminded of how I was different than other guys. This surgery put me so much closer to feeling more comfortable with myself and more comfortable within society. Living a transgendered life can be very scary and dangerous. I shudder to think what could have happened to me if I had ever encountered a hostile person before this surgery because my breasts were always a dead giveaway. I am lucky that the worst thing that happened to me when my chest gave up my game is that I was misgendered- called “she” and “her”-which, though not dangerous to my body, took an immense toll on my heart and sanity.

This surgery has literally and metaphorically been a weight lifted off of my chest. Not only has it given me comfort in my own skin, it has brought me safety in a society that is only slowly opening its arms to people living a trans experience. I now have the opportunity to tell people on my own terms about who I am without them assuming anything beforehand based on my appearance and I am so much happier than I was before.

I am so fortunate to have loving friends and family who have done everything they can to support me and validate me and my transition. I have what some people don’t and I am most grateful and humbled by the never-ending and unconditional love I have received throughout my life and with my transition. My primary struggle right now is to pay off the debt I am facing since the insurance didn’t go through. I know that not everyone is in a position to help financially. If you are one of these people, I would appreciate it just as much if you could help by spreading the word. If you are in a position to contribute financially in any moment, my gratitude will forever be yours along with a picture of me doing a topless pose of your choosing. Think about it.

xoxo, Gossip Girl